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Someonefrom1981

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hi everyone, so happy to be able to post here again.

after some weeks of relapse, I´ve reached the 30 days again.

I have felt all the agony and whitdrawal symptoms all over again.
but so far, so good.. I think i'm not done yet with the syptoms but they are welcome.. it means that i´m healing.

a reminder to my futur me.. don´t trade 10 minutes in heaven for a life long of in hell !

positive so far:
- more energy
- urges are very low

every time I feel an urge, I reach deep into my inner self and tell it to myself and really meaning it..
Use this to invest in yourself..
After is said it.. the calmness directly kicks in..
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
hi everyone, so happy to be able to post here again.

after some weeks of relapse, I´ve reached the 30 days again.

I have felt all the agony and whitdrawal symptoms all over again.
but so far, so good.. I think i'm not done yet with the syptoms but they are welcome.. it means that i´m healing.

a reminder to my futur me.. don´t trade 10 minutes in heaven for a life long of in hell !

positive so far:
- more energy
- urges are very low

every time I feel an urge, I reach deep into my inner self and tell it to myself and really meaning it..
Use this to invest in yourself..
After is said it.. the calmness directly kicks in..
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Congratulations bro. Best wishes ahead. God bless you!!
 
hi guys, 40 days..

my anxiety is still here.. I´m feeling a bit all over the place.

I remember from previous streaks that I was allready walking on sunshine.. but sadly for me i´m not there yet..

I went on a holiday trip and git some stress with driving around and planning.. so maybe that is an additional trigger..

I´m holding on and I really want to make it to 150 days..

see ya @ day 50..
 
day 50..

restarted my morning runs.. and still going strong and even stronger in the gym..

anxiety has finally start to wear off..

Urges are very low.. and my time spend on socials is like 30 minutes a dat tops.

I can say.. I feel good.. I feel present..I feel motivated..

see you guys on day 60!

keep your eyes on the price..
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
day 50..

restarted my morning runs.. and still going strong and even stronger in the gym..

anxiety has finally start to wear off..

Urges are very low.. and my time spend on socials is like 30 minutes a dat tops.

I can say.. I feel good.. I feel present..I feel motivated..

see you guys on day 60!

keep your eyes on the price..
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NICE !! Congratz brother ;) by the way I love your username.
 
hi guys, I wanted to post yesterday but the server was down..

anyway.. that makes today day 61.

i feel amazingly good.. it´s a good moment, I used to be afraid that the moment was to good and maybe not going to last.. but now I´m like now it´s a good moment, let´s f***ing enjoy it..

I still get up @ 6.30 and put on my running shoes.. it's so easy, because I like it.. I feel very high in energy, and in the evening I become tired and can get a good night rest.. just to do the same thing again in the morning..

I don´t have the urges anymore like before, I would get the tought sometimes but it´s so easy to put it asside..

i´m also very little time on socials these days.. just a quick look to see if no one send me a message.. and then it´s bye bye before scrolling..

I´m not going back to the addiction, every urge i used to invest in myself and I still do it.

I´ve started some meditation too.. It´s nice, gives me some additional rest..

anyway see you guys @ 70..
 
not good, i´ve relapsed.. can´t believe it, how do we get in to a position that we know we don´t like..
so today i restart, day 2.
i was really aiming at that 150 days..
With a new start and a bucket full of sorry´s, I will not be checking in before 30 days..
because I feel like shit and this will not change untill I get to the 30 days..
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
not good, i´ve relapsed.. can´t believe it, how do we get in to a position that we know we don´t like..
so today i restart, day 2.
i was really aiming at that 150 days..
With a new start and a bucket full of sorry´s, I will not be checking in before 30 days..
because I feel like shit and this will not change untill I get to the 30 days..
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How many days you reached before....??
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
hi guys, 40 days..

my anxiety is still here.. I´m feeling a bit all over the place.

I remember from previous streaks that I was allready walking on sunshine.. but sadly for me i´m not there yet..

I went on a holiday trip and git some stress with driving around and planning.. so maybe that is an additional trigger..

I´m holding on and I really want to make it to 150 days..

see ya @ day 50..
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Keep pushing man, things will improve as time passes. The more you push, keep being consistent and persistent, the more positive things you will get.
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
not good, i´ve relapsed.. can´t believe it, how do we get in to a position that we know we don´t like..
so today i restart, day 2.
i was really aiming at that 150 days..
With a new start and a bucket full of sorry´s, I will not be checking in before 30 days..
because I feel like shit and this will not change untill I get to the 30 days..
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Hey man, just saw this right after the 40 days post. Sorry to hear, can’t imagine how you must feel.

I also relapsed 3 days ago after a nice streak.

I feel you 100% on this. But REMEMBER that it’s possible. Don’t lose hope. We all know that the first month is the hardest. This is the time that you have to stand strong and fight the impulses, withdrawls (most of which are mental) and anxiety.

PUSH PUSH PUSH!! a big part of this sh*t is mental. What did you learn from this relapse? Well, one thing maybe could be that you will never be able to put your guard down, no? Even when you begin to feel empowered and like you are in top of the world.

This doesn’t mean that it will always be a fight, but it does mean that we will always need to be extremely cautious.

I’m in the same page as you.
 
Someonefrom1981 said:
not good, i´ve relapsed.. can´t believe it, how do we get in to a position that we know we don´t like..
so today i restart, day 2.
i was really aiming at that 150 days..
With a new start and a bucket full of sorry´s, I will not be checking in before 30 days..
because I feel like shit and this will not change untill I get to the 30 days..
Click to expand...

Just want to remind you that just because you relapsed does not mean you lost your progress. Dont view your streak as the most important thing, the most important thing is your full recovery from PMO. That means your goal is remove the negative conditioning and impact porn has on your brain, you went 80 days without giving this addiction any power, meaning you gave your brain some time to breathe and slowly rewire. Just because you slipped up one time doesn’t mean you destroyed your progress, going 80 days then a slip is still AMAZING.

The biggest thing for you now is to stay focused on your real end goal, which is to eliminate this habit from your life. You need to first REALIZE that 80 days is AMAZING, and you should be patting yourself on the back. Now imagine you go another 80 days, now in 160 days you have only slipped up once, even if you go another 20 days, another way to look at it is you slipped up twice in 100 days, and if you slipped up twice every 100 days then that means you PMO 7 times in one year haha, which translates to you are spending less time watching PMO, your brain is having more time to take back control and heal.

One slip is not gonna kill you or your progress, keep your head up because you are still in a fantastic position, keep your spirits up and focus my brother.
 
can I chear a small victory, today i´m on my 30 days point.
only since the last 2 days, i´m feeling a change in sleep and peace of mind.
I have had anxiety, brain fog, motivation loss.. you name it, I had it..
But this is not an endpoint, I´m not setting an endpoint anymore.. it has to become an new way of life..
moving on, and for now every 10 days i will come here to share my progress..
thank you all for the support.
 
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