30 days Challenge │ 2022 │ Starting Journey

Hi everyone! I am starting my journey today and I want to stay clean for a month, to resist the crisis.

To count the days, I will come here every day and write a chronology of the events that happened to me, my feelings, as well as crises causing PMO.

I'll tell you a little about myself:

I am a 23 year old boy who is currently working as a designer. I love to swim. I go swimming several times a week. Besides that i'm drawing, I like to be creative in my free time. I also watch anime, animation and historical and dramatic films.

PMO was in my life 7-8 years ago when I went to school. Over the years I have quit and returned to PMO many times, but now I'm hooked again. Know I want to start over and learn how to hold myself and direct my energy to useful activities. I need support and advice from brothers who have gone through this period. Thank you for your attention!!

#Day-1

 

#Day-2

Today was a pretty good day, even though a few bad thoughts came up. I didn't do well today, but need to focus more on nofap. For example, today I did not go to the forum, although I should have.

Today I wanted to enroll in a drawing school, but I had to postpone it until tomorrow. So far, after work, I'm studying the design program. Tomorrow in the first half of the day I will definitely visit the forum.

 

#Day-3

It was a great day for me. I managed to complete the work on time, finally enrolled in a drawing school, it remains to buy additional materials. This afternoon, bad thoughts came again, but I remembered my decision that I am not such a person and do not want to do this. A work friend showed me the trailer of the film, where there was a scene of an adult character, I had to turn away right away so that there were no polations, the rest of the day went fine. The only thing I regret is that I didn’t visit the nofap forum again on the second day and this is not good.

Even today I went to the pool to correct the spine. pumping up my body, feel much better and more relaxed.

Tomorrow, the first thing after the morning routine, I will definitely visit the forum.

 

Thank you brother! I appreciate your attention and support. I wish the same for you, for other brothers. When I enter this forum, I feel hopeful and inspiring.

So far, the only thing I have understood is that if I want to remove PMO from my life, I must find an alternative that will replace it and take its place, I realized that I myself must change, although this is probably not enough. I will continue on my way.

 

#Day-4

Today was the first day of drawing school. I was very pleased and interested. I want to continue to walk and develop myself in this direction.

In general, it was a good day, there were fewer urges, there was not much work either. Tomorrow I plan to go to courses again, go to the pool or ride a scooter. There are many plans, in the worst case, I will study the design program at home.

Today, upon returning home from the course, I wanted to visit the market, buy something to eat. However, I could not restrain myself and bought junk food, although I know how bad it affects me. If I want to change myself, then I must change my diet, my food.

Yesterday I promised myself to visit the forum in the morning and for the third day I have not kept my word, the campaign will have to turn on my alarm clock for this.

 

Thank you, I will take your advice. I find meditation a very useful and necessary activity. I wish you good luck brother!

 

#Day-5

Today, oddly enough, there was no urge, probably because my mind was busy with other things.

I continue my studies in drawing, learning the basics such as geometric shapes, correct proportions, etc.

I recently noticed that I strive to communicate, at least there is such a desire, I do not want to stay away. its cool!

I continue to go to the pool, I feel more relaxed and calmer. I do not want to waste my energy on PMO anymore.

In public places I am calm, not shy and not ashamed. I like this life and I also want to continue this path.

 

Hi brother, thanks again for visiting this article. I appreciate your advice about cold water and will do so soon.

What I want to become is far away, but I am getting closer to it step by step. I believe that someday I will. Surely it will be.

 

#Day-6

Another day left behind. Today was not productive like yesterday, I was sitting at home because of which there were more urges.

I need to keep a diary and create a list of goals so that I can do everything on time.

The mood was normal, we went to the salon to get a haircut for our cat.

By July 10, I need to have time to finish the presentation on the design project. I hope that everything will be alright.

 

[Relapse]

27 June / Morning at 05:15 PM

Yesterday I watched a lot of movies and did nothing else, while I have a project on hold that needs to be completed.

The last day was not productive for me and I did not plan my schedule, which is why I wasted my time.

I'll have to find out the reason for the relapse, maybe I stumbled upon triggers and didn't notice it.

Yesterday I felt many urges and took a cold shower to calm my mind and body, it became easier.

I need to visit the forum more, plan my schedule, identify triggers, learn to meditate.

Tomorrow, June 28, I start all over.
Let's continue the journey

Next goal #14days

 

#Day-1

I need to focus on the project and finish it by June 10th. I still need to prepare for the presentation.

I continue to go swimming, I think about going to physiotherapy again.

The mood is good, better than yesterday. Trying to recover quickly

 

Thanks for the advice bro, there's some truth in that. In everyday life, I do not meet anything related to this, only on the Internet I can stumble, and then if I want. I will try to forget PMO and everything related to it.

 

Thanks a lot brother!

I really appreciate your support. I believe that you will also reach the goal, so I wish you good luck, patience and strength.

Yes we will do it!

 

Hi again!

It has already been a week since I stopped nofap, of course, this was followed by frequent relapses, crises, and feelings of guilt, constant nervousness and fatigue.

I noticed that while doing PMO, I no longer feel happy, no bright emotions, I don’t feel joy in simple things as before

Now I have to pick myself up and start my journey again

My goal is 30 days nofap
#day1