30 Days Challenge

Hello fapstronauts,

Being new, it took me a while to find my way around this forum. With the same enthusiasm, I'm starting this 30 days NoFap challenge.

Day 0:

Today was nice, I had some brief moments of sexual urges which forced me to open my laptop and enter a particular porn website. Then I decided to think about the challenge I took and somehow mustered up the strength to close it and went to resume my studies. It was quite overwhelming at the beginning. But I was able to control myself.

This evening I went for a walk, instead of my usual routine of watching porn at least once or twice and then jerking off to it. The air was so refreshing, I then got a cup of coffee. Sat down and wrote my diary.

I'm preparing for some competitive exams for jobs in the public sector. There are a lot of moments I decided and even tried to quit watching porn and masturbation. But it was extremely difficult. With this post, I begin a new path. I hope to accomplish my challenge.

Thank you.

 

I slipped guys. I just couldn't control. I was doing well for 2 days and then I felt the need to relieve myself from the stress. I was alone and I tried so hard to control. But after sometime I relapsed and opened a porn site and masturbated. To be honest, I didn't feel any guilt or remorse at all. I took up a challenge and I failed in it. Yet, my mind doesn't seem to reprimand my act. It's so weird. I'm resetting the counter. I want to try again.

 

The time is 00:45 IST. I couldn't sleep. I opened up my smartphone and visited all social networking sites, facebook, twitter, instagram, whatsapp, 9gag. After sometime, i felt the urge to masturbate. It was so strong. I opened the browser in my mobile and typed the address and even entered the site. But I didn't give in to my cravings. I fought, I was actually lying on my belly and the heat at my crotch made me want to do it again. So I turned on my back and tried to avert my thoughts. And I succeeded. I didn't masturbate. I drank some water, did some push ups and then went to the bathroom. Washed my face and I'm writing this post. Successfully completed another day.