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30 days passed! looking forward to 60 days!!!

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by ControlMyLife, Jun 25, 2018.

  1. ControlMyLife

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    Hi everyone my name is Vlad and im here writing this post to share the experience which is hopefully will help others. so 30 days without masturbation and porn have passed pretty easily... but how was it started?

    About 30 days ago i got rejected by a girl, we had one date and then no return to calls...
    i was devastated, i don't know why it had such enormous effect on me... after no response i remember my mood shifted from neutral to afraid, i felt depression and panic raising inside me... so as my custom i turned to porn and masturbation, that feeling high after porn faded quickly and later that evening anxiety strikes me out of nowhere.
    a day passed and i was feeling horrible like the end of the world is coming, i couldn't understand how my mood shifted so fast, i was in a deep depression i was in mental pain, it was striking through my brain and down to my chest every thought was like a knife cutting trough my head and downwards to the stomach, feeling the body with anxiety.
    it was that Saturday i decided, i can't feed myself and my brain with the crap called porn, i couldn't let myself be fed by these terrible images and unrealistic standards.
    the feelings of anxiety and depression followed me through almost whole week, my thoughts was scattered, i started to cry in occasions, my brain was hurting from overthinking painful thoughts, this wasn't the first time it was happening to me, in all this emotional mess i knew, i had no idea how but i knew these wasn't my thoughts it was my brain torturing me for some reason...
    that day was Friday, i was in a middle of a training and was so depressed, i actually thought to my self, "am i on a pathway to suicide?" and "isn't that state what cause people to end their lives?"...
    that Friday, i couldn't stand it anymore , the thoughts bumping into each other inside my head and echoing all over the space, i was crying. only one thought was flickering between others, and it said to me "that's not me, that's my mind it just trying to frustrate me".
    that night i decided that enough was enough, i couldn't stand it anymore nor i was going to. i had to gain control over the mind, over my life and myself. that night i decided to look to the reality straight into the face, and now i knew, i was running from the truth, that girl that rejected me and all other girls in my life, i did nothing to improve myself, i was fat, didn't took care a lot about myself, wasn't eating healthy, and the worst of all i didn't like myself, that image in the mirror made me unhappy but i didn't move a finger to change it, i was kinda hoping someone will like me, i was suppressing the reality that i'm not good enough. so i accepted this fact, and in addition to quit porn and masturbation i quieted watching any kinda of propaganda, or any tv programs anything that wasn't natural to my brain, no movies no tv shows, i started to watching only things that are real and educational. i also started to eat low crab diet and my run distance improved during 30 days from 4 km to 16 km, 3-2 times per week.
    i turned back to watch David Goggins, the former navy SEAL that i remembered he was speaking about control. just an important note i'm running first and foremost to resist to my mind, during that long runs your mind wants you to quit so bad and sometimes the pain is flushing thoughts into your brain to make you quit, but this is the real exercise, you are running against your mind when you keep resisting you gain control over it, i'm telling myself during the run: "i know, it's painful but i wont stop until the i get to the finish line, now i'm in control". so i keep watching David Goggins almost everyday, and even twice per day.
    so 14 days since then no depression no anxiety, the mind sometimes bother me for like 3 seconds and then good thoughts appear.
    i dropped out few kilogram and my belly fat reduced significantly...
    since last week i have calm thoughts i listen only to classic music during the day, i prefer piano it's very relaxing, i feel better and i'm in more peaceful state. only during my runs i listen to electronic music to get me into pace.
    with that state i'm heading towards 60 days of no masturbation and no porn.

    hope you all doing well and may the universe will empower, you to keep resisting PMO.
    Vlad
     
  2. Mohammed the one

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    Nice job mate! Keep going you got this!!
     
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  3. Dogwood

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    Bravo! Nice work turning things around. The ladies will soon be chasing you!
     
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  4. Arms.R.heavy

    Arms.R.heavy Fapstronaut

    Very inspiring Vlad.
    Hitting emotional rock bottom gave you a big reason to change, and you made changes to your habits. You are also learning self discipline with running. Stay strong stay the course.
     
    Last edited: Jun 26, 2018
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  5. alimario88

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    Nice one mate .well done .on my 43day. Keep the fight up
     
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  6. TheKushagra

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    good job bro
    keep moving
    good luck for coming days in your life and hope you will make it 60days.
     
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  7. Andreid

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    Good job, brother, you did a lot of progress in the last month, but you need to be very careful.
    All the changes you did happened in a short period of time. It's hard to give up to a lot of bad habbits and also incorporate new habbits during only one months. Urges will come when you expect less, so you need to be prepared.
    But other than that, keep on doing your best, mate!
     
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  8. Warrior xxx :-)

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  9. Great going mate. I did too reduce my belly fat a lot after starting NoFap. It certainly becomes easier to get back to healthy state once you start conserving that powerful semen. Keep going forever on this path. Hope to read another success story from you sooner :)
     
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  10. ControlMyLife

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    thank you guys for the support i appreciate it all.
     
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  11. GoldenGod15

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    You're on the right path. Things will only get better
     
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