30 days with NoFap!

Hi friends,

I haven't written so much in this forum, but I think that this time is a good moment to do it, and help to the rest of people who are on this struggle to get inspired.

On March 10 I resetted my NoFap counter after to try many times since a year ago. Nevertheless, on December of 2014 I made a table with many kind of goals to reach this 2015, and one of them was to leave from NoFap. I gave me 3 months (from January to March) to remove this addiction.

So, on January I avoided the alcohol, go to do jogging, not watching porn and fap. It was a great month, however, I relapsed during al February and beginning March. Then, in 10th of March I resetted, as I said in the beginning of the post, and with a great conviction in overpass the addiction that has been joined to me since I'm 12 years old.

Results? I feel myself more motivated, more energy, encouraged to do things and reach the goals that I setted up at the end of 2014 in order to change the paradigm based on love, classical music and art. By the way, these two things have helped me a lot to eliminate my perverted mindset and to appreciate more the female beauty (physical and psychological). I started to learn French, to study to Leibniz, Gauss, Alexander Hamilton, Benjamin Franklin, Plato and Lyndon LaRouche documents.

On the other hand, the NoFap has allowed me to get the bravery of show my feelings to a girls who's my friend since 2-3 years ago, with whom I've kissed many times and now I'm going out with her. I feel myself a man who can encourage and protect to his girlfriend.

Now, with the first quarter over, my next goal is to elimante definitely P, I've been watching P, however I've discovered something curious, my mind disapproves this kind of "films". So, another goal that I've setted up is to stop smoking from today to the end of the year, but I'll try to elimante this addiction as soon as possible.


What I've written doesn't mean a fantastic end of a story, but a phase of a process that is projected to the end of my life, even beyond of my life, because I would like to teach to younger people, my future children this experience that I'm living today. To leave from the figure of man-beast and to transform in the rational-man. This is one of my ways to contribute to the mankind's future, to say: "Hey, man! I was in your skin in the past, I know what you feel, but believe me, if you get really comitted to improve to yourself and to be the reference of improvement for your friends, relatives and future generations, I'm going to support you!!!"

"It's how you contribute to the mankind's future what represents the sense of the life"


I'm an addicted since I'm 12 yo, I've suffered bullying at the high school, I wasn't enough brave to face my problems, to be respected, to show my feelings to a girl, I suffered ED because of P, I've been manipulated by others, I suffered my family's disintegration because of my father's alcoholism.

But when I started to do parkour on 2007, the principle of self-improvement was building up inside my mind, I could overpass the depression that I suffered during I was teenager, then I went to England to live and work during 3 months on 2011, my self-esteem started to grow. It was an inflection point because since the English experience I started to have sex, to go out with girls.

But... Despite to that, there was something that sabotaging me everytime, my addiction to P. Yes, during the Summer of 2012 I could leave from PMO during 4 months, although, when I met to my second girlfriend at university, I began to relapse because she liked to see me jerking off. This relationship turned toxic and then, I re-started the PMO ritual that passed to higher level after to split up with this girl (It was during this period when I met my current girlfriend because she's my ExGF's friend!!)

I met many girls during the period from September 2013 to October 2014. After to split up with my recent ExGF, I met 5 girls, two of them prostitutes. The last one was on October 2014 after a crazy night in which I met a girl with whom I've kissed and finished at her home having sex. It was since that month when, at the same time, I started to meet more with my current GF, kissing with her. It was in tha period when I got realized that I don't like casual sex, but to be with someone who wants more than sex and to share its feelings, standpoints and other experiences.

And so, on December of 2014 I decided to set up the goals that today I'm achieving. This is not the end, but the continuation of a beautiful process.

P.D. Sorry for my English grammar.

 

Thanks friend!!! Wish you the same!! Never give up!