30+ days without PMO, finally after many attempts

Hi,

So I finally managed to do 30+ days without jacking off or watching porn. My previous longest streaks were 21, 18 and 14 days respectively, with periods of sometimes very excessive PMO and some shorter streaks between.

I am 21 and first came into contact with porn at approximately 13. I have made first attempts to seriously limit fapping for the first time around 3 years ago. Over the time, my appetite for porn has grown and some days I spanked the monkey 5+ times. During my excessive fapping (and at some times excessive drinking) period I was very unconfident and insecure, had marked social anxiety and for some time also from depression (to the point of being barely able to perform basic tasks). During my last serious relationship attempt, porn use led to performance issues in bed (extreme stimulation needed), the relationship was a complete shitshow in other ways too.

I am not sure if I feel the benefits fully as I am now having lyme disease, recently was prescribed medication and am feeling very tired and overall unwell (probably) due to it. However, after 30 days I have noticed the following:
- first week was terrible, second week was also not pleasant
- not edging is almost crucial to prevent relapsing - this was the mistake with all my previous streaks longer than a few days
- there is not nearly as much urge to fap after days 15-20
- had a wet dream after 4 weeks, quite unpleasant to wake up at 4 am and have to clean the mess
- urge to fap is already slightly increasing, but I have no desire to watch porn and am quite disgusted by even remembering what sort of porn I used to watch before
- thinking about sex, sex seems to me as something much more wonderful than before, it seems to have more meaning and beauty
- smiling at women comes more naturally, I want to try meeting somebody new as I am already alone for a long time... anyway, overall attitude towards women seems to get "reset" and I'm more motivated to find the correct answers/attitude/opinion
- more desire to exercise
- increase in confidence,desire to socialize
- increase in willpower/motivation to work on stuff (work, hobbies,...)
- sadly, at some times during the reboot I had fits of extreme pissed off rage (I am a very angry person naturally, quite short-fused and explosive - but usually not that much).

NoFap indeed seems to work. I hope I'll be able to continue with it for a longer time. It usually takes 2+ weeks for me to start noticing serious benefits.

Especially the more "unconventional" and intense genres of porn seriously screw up one's outlook on the world around. It is also quite a downward spiral, easy to always go to more extreme and disgusting stuff and yet train the brain to get aroused by it.

Certainly, if (when?) I decide to fap again, I'll do my best to leave out porn, especially more extreme porn...

Have a nice day, fellow fapstronauts!