30 days

I have a lot to recover from, this is only the beginning. But I couldn't wait to tell you guys how I got here.

I think I've failed this challenge over a thousand times. Porn blockers never did it for me. After all, we know that bringing an alcoholic to rehab won't do much if he doesn't want to or believe that he will recover. In my case, what did it for me was not porn blockers, but a document that listed the benefits and why I was doing this in the first place.

Something like this:

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Social life
- You will be able to talk to anyone
- You will be happier and more confident

Sexuality/Libido
- You will be better able to hold a relationship
- You will be attracted to normal women
- You will become more masculine

School (or work)
- Good grades
- I'll finish my degree

You have no idea what this intervention will entail. EVERYTHING depends on it.

NEVER AGAIN.
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So many drug addicts go to extensive rehab only to relapse the day after. Why? Although I'm not sure PMO addiction is as strong as heroin or cocaine addiction, we need a strong conviction to endure the urges. That's what did it for me. I don't have a porn blocker now, my favorite porn site is literally one second away; and yet I don't have the slightest intention of visiting it. What's more, I'm home alone, on my computer, at midnight.


As I said, I have a long way to go. But my benefits are:

- I can clearly feel that I'm rewiring. My fantasies, which I try to keep at a minimum, now consist of holding hands or kissing a normal girl.

- I find pleasure in the most ordinary things. I'm enjoying doing, thinking, and planning for courses in university, something which never happened before.

- It's easier to accomplish small tasks. I used to brush only once per day because twice required too much mental effort.

- More confidence in all aspects of life. I'm also more assertive.


Stay strong guys. You can do it.

 

Thanks! There will come times of extremely strong urges, and in those moments, porn blockers won't work. If we break, we will get around the porn blocker. This we all know. The only hope we have is staying strong by keeping in mind the benefits of nofap and the negatives of PMO. It's not enough to know conceptually that PMO is bad, you have to know it on a deep level that your subconscious can understand. Hammer the benefits of nofap in your head. Make nofap a self evident truth about yourself, with capital letters: NEVER AGAIN. Say it out loud with conviction.

edit: As to managing stress, I've found benefit in not drinking caffeine. It makes me so anxious about things that don't matter at all. Sometimes stressful things happen and you just have to power through. The most important thing is to be prepared for the moments of weakness.