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30 days

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Deleted Account, Nov 23, 2022.

  1. WARNING STRONG LANGUAGE

    I had a complete emotional, mental and spiritual meltdown by the end of october and I was reborn as a future man. Not a teenager in an adult body.
    PMO is for creeps that spy on women, either you see them on screen or in real life, you are a creep. That's how I started feeling after 1 week and it was the second awakening.
    I felt I am a man that has nothing to lose and I will die free and not an addict, first days I was crying before sleep because of my life that is rock bottom, and porn images kept bombarding me. I didn't care.
    All my patterns, images were in my head, I have seen some shit on dark web I will never forget and I was alone and crying under my desk after O, then punching walls and shit. I had nobody in life, if I was to die nobody would know for 1 week.
    Day 10 and 20 I really got nuked, all my sexual life since 5 till now at 30 played over and over again, I felt my forehead bombarded just like I was sitting in front of a monitor watching for hours. I sat in bed and left my brain do its shit. Few days all the MF porn non.stop like a broken disc.
    I had a wet dream, I felt that was me winning, I didn't do anything for that to happen, I cleaned myself and back to sleep then I had a shit nightmare with somebody sitting by the side of the bed gazing at me sleeping.
    I had a hot talk with a girl because she initiated, my balls hurt that day and erections were annoying, and a chaser effect next two days, I didnt care.
    My brain tried to trick me into chaser effect. I woke up several days I did it last night, I relapsed, lets do it in the morning too, yeah no. I figured out was just a dream before I woke up.
    My pc sits behind a blocker but the phone isnt blocked and I can see everything I want, but I wont. At day 30 I have a sword on this addiction throat and I am cut it slowly with each day is passing by, until all the blood is spilled and I am gonna shit on it, even if this is my first 30 days I dont fuck around and I am gonna start a new life and I am gonna own it for good.
    I dont feel any superpowers or rejuvenation or whatever, I dont care the girls, my skin, confidence and whatever.
    My suppressed emotions are like a wildfire, I go through a lot of present disappointments and I am rock bottom. My heart hurts like hell because of the stress, I will take a cardiac arrest and die rather than suppressing the stress. I have nothing to lose or suppress anymore.
    And porn companies to be happy I am a peaceful man, if I had a violent childhood I would have gotten ape shit serial killer on them for raping 18 yo girls that are poor with troubled life and dont know any better and also ruining my childhood.
    If I am day 30 you can do it. I had sex at 5 for two years almost everyday with a girl, and I went straight into bestiality porn at 7 then some other hardcore shit I dont wanna talk about. I have seen all the FILTH and HELL and I am telling you, OWN YOUR LIFE. Porn is for donkeys that watch wolves raping their sheep.
    Day 10-20 was asylum life for me, I wished I could be tied to a wall and cry. My addiction is severe but I only have to escape once, I wont go back to the cage.
    This is the real benefit of 30 days and the journey to become a man. Nothing matters more than your life and your freedom.
     
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  2. secure in my frame

    secure in my frame Fapstronaut

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    Way to go man I'm moving into day 31 and I started this addiction when i was 7 Im gonig through it too but i want so much to clean not only in my own eyes but in the of God im with in this fight friend God Bless stay strong your an inspiration
     
  3. Unfotunately god isn't my motivation but to put the devil on its knees at my own mercy and give it forgiveness. I was born free and I will die free, nothing can chain me even if is the filth of this world.
    God gave me life to learn something, to make me stronger and better but I have to do it myself and all I want is power over my own life. I am done with being in a cage.
     

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