30 frickin days - Thoughts

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by JouleTrader, Jul 22, 2018.

  1. JouleTrader

    JouleTrader Fapstronaut

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    At last, after 20 years, I've succeeded in lasting 30 days and beyond.
    I get sex with the wife, though, but about once a week, we're really busy with kids and our jobs.
    No more porn for me.
    How did I do it?
    It coincided with a major depressive episode in my life, where I had to go to the mental hospital. I was put on SSRIs (antidepressants). They helped by regulating my moods, and the positive side effect of seemingly decreasing my sex drive (which is great, if you ask me).
    I know it's cheating but I've spent 20 years beating my meat before bed and now I don't have to do it, because getting myself off seriously takes too long.....
    Is that cheating? Whatever. I'll be concerned when it's time to get off the meds, whether I would go haywire again. But hey! I'm fap free and porn free! I still have urges for merges, but hey, a thing at a time.
    You can check my page history! It's clean man! Apart from 'Nofap'.
    I feel incredible, I feel like I'm in beast mode.
    Just a few more things I need to do, which is to work with utmost concentration for 8 hours and daily planning for work, and I'll be set!
    No more hold on me, you bitches of porn and fapping!
     
  2. JouleTrader

    JouleTrader Fapstronaut

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    36 days, boy I feel raging inside and a dull ache in my left nut.
    hmmph.
    I think frequently about sex.
    Like....VERY frequently.
    Last night I had a sex related dream.
    Man, when would this end?
     
  3. I don't think it's cheating. Here's a TED Talk by someone who overcame addiction with the help of a drug.
     
  4. JouleTrader

    JouleTrader Fapstronaut

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    Heh, I wish I managed to quit without resorting to meds. But oh well whatever goes.
     
  5. It's not good to only depend on meds but for some people with depression, it's the best thing to do.
     
  6. JouleTrader

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    40+ days. I'm leaving my dead-end job in a month. It's been nice being PMO free. I get sex. But after day 7 without, I kinda go nuts (hur, hur, the pun).
    I really have to structure my time better. I check out my phone obsessively and I trade forex and CFDs.
    I should be doing stuff like polishing up my resume and writing cover letters or studying for my CFAs.
    But I'm just feeling lazy.
     
  7. JouleTrader

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    Resolve kinda weakening. I've almost reached day 50.
    I'm starting to plan for my next stage of my life, in finance.
     

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