30 yo married guy relapsed severely after 10 years

I was addicted to porn as a teenager and quit cold turkey in my early twenties. Then about a year ago, I opened that can of worms again.

A lot of it was out of resentment - my sex life became almost non-existent about 2/3 ago (I'm married). So after 3 years of fighting over sex, I kinda gave up the fight and out of spite, I resorted to watching porn. It started slow - mild curiosity at first and then a full-blown daily binge for 1/2 hours. (I'm a busy guy - I get home at 11pm on a normal day, so spending this amount of energy on this addiction was draining some serious natural resources.)

I stumbled across NoFap browsing Reddit. I started reading yourbrainonporn.com and realised - hey, that's me. I've become depressed (I usually err on the side of unrealistic optimism) , don't have much energy and, quite frankly, if my sex life would suddenly return to normal, I would have very little interest in my wife. So after reading some of threads here, I thought I'd join.

I'll get that counter thing going as soon as I get round to reading the manual . To be honest, I'm not sure what number of days I should target. I'm still thinking that through. Let's just say that it will have to be a PM target. If the Mrs happens to be in the mood (hey, it's been more than three months since the last time she was), I'm not going to say no thank you . But then again, it could be several more weeks before that happens.

Other married guys or guys in long-term relationships: did your PMO habit start because of a lack of sex? Or was it unrelated?

Personally, I found the standard fare a turn-off. What I was really craving was the intimacy and the closeness and now that the fog is lifting, I see even more clearly than before how ridiculous it is to try and satisfy that need with the trash on the web.

Ok. That's me. Busy day tomorrow and it's past midnight in my part of the world.