Hello friends . im a 32 years old man . masturbating from 14-15 years old till now . and recently (about 7 month before )i masturbated very extremely about 3 times a night because of my own life problems . i was watching horrible videos of whipping inocent women and i don't really know why i was enjoying those videos . i'm a really peaceful man ,and i hate violence . then i got mentally sick . i went to a doctor and he gave me pills for anxiety . so i took the pills but i did masturbate with medicines and i didnt get so much better . and then i saw the idea of nofap in internet . believe me or not , i was so so stupid and fool that until then i didnt know that the root of my all problems is masturbation and porn . i started to quiet masturbation and i was succesful with only 6 days streak . i cant tell you how much happy i was just for that 6 days . i was reborn , i understood that i always lived in darkness and i didnt even know that . anyway , i couldnt stay more than 6 days and i relapsed , then started again and relapsed and .... And then yesterday i masturbated 2 times and i got back to my anxiety and depression . i really got sure 100% that this is the only reason of my misery in my life . i am 1 day free now . but i am here to go for as much as i can .i hate relapse and ejaculation . i missed that 6 day's freedom and power . pray for me my friends . i am very deep into the addiction. 17 years . that's a lifetime .