35 and older accountability, Group 2

Day 12

 

Praying everyone is prayed up and ready to fight today… satan is ready, we must be too. Open those bibles and get you mind and soul ready for battle.


Galatians 5:1
Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.


Philippians 1:27
Only let your conduct be worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or am absent, I may hear of your affairs, that you stand fast in one spirit, with one mind striving together for the faith of the gospel.


Philippians 4:1
Therefore, my beloved and longed-for brethren, my joy and crown, so stand fast in the Lord, beloved.

1 Thessalonians 3:8
For now we live, if you stand fast in the Lord.

 

Praying everyone is prayed up and ready to fight today… satan is ready, we must be too. Open those bibles and get you mind and soul ready for battle.

 

Wow you're doing very good with 33 days. I can't wait to get there.

I'm checking in here and my goal is to write at least one sentence per day in my journal. And my immediate goal is also to mark day 7 complete.

 

Just saw a link to this group for the first time in @persona2903 's journal post. Great stuff! You all are an encouragement to me. Keep fighting the good fight.

 

About to reset my counter.
Day 1.
Had a rough relapse which I'll detail in another post.

Ready to do this!

 

Day 11 - Checking In

My record this year is 13 Days
I Hope that I can pass it

Make new record of this year

 

Hahaha thank you so much
Yes, I remember when I was active in this forum, I can reach 113 Days nofap

But during pandemi, my guard getting lower.
I'm so happy join again in this thread

Thank you so much @persona2903

 

I relapsed last night. Thursday is a tough night for me. I have an online event I host and it leaves me alone on my computer. It’s been my toughest night for the last month. Event runs for two hours.

Guys, I have to be honest that I don’t check in with all my slips because I feel guilty that I can’t offer hope to y’all, have failed again and have no effing clue what I’m doing. I just try to be positive and keep trying.

Yesterday was tough. The chaser effect from intimacy with wife two days ago, missing dopamine from my webcam porn, and I just get to feeling so anxious that I want to use and I did.

 

I have also minimized my problem. I look up nsfw content on legitimate sites on my work computer. I could get fired from my job if they caught me. I don’t share that and try to conpartmentalize that fact.

 

@ANewFocus yeah I feel like that too... I almost slipped up last night and I've been feeling some kind of psychological urge this morning. But I know I can never give up. I'm only on day 7, but I do feel so much better now that I'm even doing a little better. One thing that helped me recently is remembering that I really do feel very good when I have 20+ days on my counter. I need to get even further. But I feel much better now that I have 7 days... and even still I'm almost falling. This problem is a real pain but I can't give up. I'll keep looking for ways to win at this.

 

I have had a setback--to day 1

 

God bleed everyone. I can’t say I haven’t had to battle thought because that would be a lie. I can say truthfully I’m learning to control my eyes and that includes my mind’s eye. I don’t let thoughts linger, but cast them out as soon as they come. I’m not saying this is easy, however, I am saying it’s worth it in so many ways

 

Day 12 - Checking In

 

No struggles today. I thank the Lord for that.. Praying his mercy for tomorrow if He decides to wake me up. Doubt and depression tried to seep its way in, but forgiveness and love fought it off. Stay encouraged today everyone. Stay encouraged today.

 

I am grateful to hear this bro, congrats on your new jobs and higher pay and less work!

if i am remembering correctly you were having concerns about your previous job and that inharmoney has disolved now so its worth celebration

Also There is a book called the power of full engagement which has been extremly helpful to me to not feel bored and keep my mind engaged, i like the audio book version personally.

 

Check in -

Feeling a deep sense of gratitude for this community, and you guys. I feel the minute I re-joined this group again in the last month or so, I am so much more committed and free from the temptations to watch.

I have been considering the difference between the desire to watch porn, vs the being pure.

I realize the desire to watch porn is an impulse, it is not a true desire, it is a limitation because my awareness now sees the pain on the other side of it and its downfall.

The desire for being pure I see now is the higher / true desire of the mind/body/soul because I what i deeply long for is not to tickel my sensations but to experience greater degree of love, peace, joy and harmony every moment of my life.

Watching porn, makes me feel good for 1 hour, then leave me lusting and craving for the rest of the 23 hours.
Being pure, may take discipline for a few seconds of temptations but leaves me feeling self assured, calm and joyful and able to connect w/ women from a place of love, and it lasts 24 hours.

 

Day 15, been a grind as of late…