35 and Older Accountability Group

Checking in.

All good so far, urges are mild.

 

Check in in Friday morning - so busy last few nights. Gonna stay busy over the weekend, too much time is my downfall.

 

Check in friday

 

Cheky Cheky, day13 and friday. No urges, ive made up my mind about quitting PMO. Maybe that what makes it easyer. Im still careful and alert. This addiction is a snake, it crawls near to you, and bytes if youre not alert.

 

Friday - Day 11. I’m not going to cave in any way and I’m going to get lots done. I need to stop defining the most important thing of day with what I don’t do.

 

A snake! Totally!

There’s a really cool image of this in Exodus. Israelites are in the desert. They are depraved. They are infested with snakes. They are bitten and die.

Moses makes a brass serpent for them to look at to protect them from the venom.

The imagery is powerful: the snake represents animal nature that we cannot subdue. The brass serpent is the emblem of the transformation of the self. When we are transformed, the snakes cannot kill us.

I am a huge geek, I know, but you started it by referencing the snake.

 

Checking in... day 20 presently monk mode!

 

There is a 30 day challenge starting Monday. 3 man teams.

Anybody from the group want to join the challenge?

 

I'm up for it.

Need all the motivation I can get.

 

Day 9. I'm realising more and more that its not about counting the days but making the days count.

 

Feeling insane urges tonight, I was fine but since my gym workout I have become all jittery with urges.

Not just physical urges but mental as well, wanting to look at hot women etc.

I refrained from using my phone, went for walk for about an hour but urges are still high even now.

I wonder why I urge in gym and after?

 

Maybe the girls there fire something up deep down? Or something else.

I’m fighting tonight too. Pushing it away.

Not even having direct urges. Just an urge to do stuff that will later lead to pm. I have been doing a good job controlling thoughts lately so this is interesting. My junkie brain wants a fix. I’m going to try to sleep.

 

Those urges after working out killed me.

I lasted 10 days.

Reset

 

@JJ_Kino
@control your life

I saw Control Your Life on the unassigned list of the challenge already. You want to join us and make a team?

Those are the kind of urges I need to learn to shut down. Last night turned out not bad for me.

 

Same...day 0...check in

 

For what it's worth I might try meditation.

Let's pick ourselves up and move on.

 

Checking in. More good days than bad ones this week. The withdraw effects are still strong but I can handle them as long as I don't get complacent.

 

Checking in... day 21 still on hard mode! Lord grateful to you for this bliss!

 

Day 15, yesterday had some minor urges, but nothing to write about.

 

Check in sunday