Wow. I am doing way too much. As usual. If i'm not abusing my body one way i'm abusing it some other way. Now it's caffeine. Coffee and energy drinks. It's not the substance. It's the addict. I am focusing now on my caffeine abuse, and it is abuse. Tonight was scary. I consumed over 1000mg throughout the day. Nausea and panic. I don't want to push myself any more. I want peace within myself. Caffeine is another addiction of mine. It needs to go. I'm dealing with the crash as i type this. And its relevant since it has silenced all of my urges, which lately are in overdrive. Feeling detached. Yuk.