35 and Older Accountability Group

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by artifact, Nov 24, 2018.

  1. Had a couple of good days but not today. Slept terrible last night - that always makes for a dangerous day in my case. I really want to get back on track before the end of the year. I tell myself that all the time and then I screw up again.
     
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  2. Rebooter13

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    The amount of relapses happened this Octomber reminded me the first day of lockdown a few months back.
     
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  3. Yes, looks good. I have added you to the waiting list. We may have an opening for you in the next few weeks.
     
  4. 3 more days and you get the 90 day trophy! You have done great and I know it's not easy.
     
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  5. Jerky

    Jerky Fapstronaut

    Indeed. It has not been easy. It is only through God's Grace and this group that i remain clean. Thank you all for your support. I cannot do this alone. That is truth.
     
  6. GtnHrdAgn1

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    This is a huge trigger for me. I have to be so disciplined about bed routine so that I sleep decent. Keeps me from staying attached to a screen at night and also from being really impulsive next day.

    Hang in there man. Staying in the pit won’t help us sleep or staying clean. Let’s get a clean day tomorrow.
     
  7. emanuel_free

    emanuel_free Fapstronaut

    Checking in ! Always alert ! I hope you had a good "sober October" !
     
  8. Jerky

    Jerky Fapstronaut

    Flatline. Lucky me. Maybe because i haven't showered today? Environmental trigger perhaps. I've been told about people, places, and things related to my addiction. The shower is one of those places. Unfortunately i cannot avoid it forever.
     
  9. GtnHrdAgn1

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    Man this sucks, but as you say not avoidable. It’s amazing to me how reliably the days I slip are days I don’t shower, exercise, get up on time, actually get dressed, whatever. It’s like my body know if IDGAF about myself one day and boom crash. Sucks to have the shower be a trigger too, just gotta face it and keep breathing. Eye on the target.
     
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  10. Checking in...failing miserably at the moment...all linked to my vulnerability whilst coming off meds but yesterday I PMO'd twice earlier in the day and I felt VERY depressed afterwards so need to keep trying and stay on here for support
     
  11. GtnHrdAgn1

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    Man, I'm really angry. I had 10+ days and just crashed. Got derailed for a stupid reason, watching a TV show last night with my wife that had nude models. I couldn't stop fixating, stayed up late peeking and edging, but couldn't stop thinking about it as soon as I woke up. Had a full lapse now. It is so disheartening that something so small like a TV show that has completely non-sexual nudity can get me to just throw away almost 2 weeks of progress.
     
  12. emanuel_free

    emanuel_free Fapstronaut

    Get back on your feet and learn from it so you'll be prepared for next time it happens. Don't give up. Every fall is a learning chance. Trust me I'm a pro. lol :p
     
  13. emanuel_free

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    I totally get you. Be strong and keep remembering how good this 89 days of freedom have been. The people and places have the power that we give them or take away from them. You can control it, because physically, you don't need pmo to stay alive. So be brave and brief on your shower. Maybe cold water would help?
     
  14. John Call

    John Call Fapstronaut

    Checking in, i'm 11 days on my current streak, I reached the level that i hate the PMOing life style, but still i'm going through my streak with low motive, because i'm waiting for the time where the Bad me sub-consciously decides that we will do PMO, and the Good me keeps ignoring that decision as if i don't know that the decision was taken already, and it's only a matter of 24 hours that i keep approaching the porn nest step by step, from photos to any YouTube P-subs then to porn.
    i wish to be able to stop the Bad me from taking such sub-conscious decisions, and if such sub-conscious decisions were taken to be able to reverse or stop them.
     
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  15. Thanks for the reminder that we don't need PMO for survival. I've thought about that a fair amount and I think it's good to remember that these urges are not as real as hunger and thirst. They CAN be shut down.

    BTW, congrats on 130 days. Stay Strong!
     
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  16. GottaBFree

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    Hi all. Checking in.

    Been kind of down about the long term prospects but also staying committed.

    Hope all is well. I'm going to try to login at least every other day. Every day 2-4 times a day was too much and this is too little.
     
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  17. Circleinthesquare

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    Monday checkin, another crap weekend :-(
     
  18. Jerky

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    It gets better. Today is only Monday.

    But tomorrow is Tuesday which is the day before Wednesday which is the middle of the week already!

    Then comes Thursday, lovingly known as 'little Friday', followed by 'Happy Friday'.

    Looking at it this way, Monday is the only day we have to work through. All the other days lead into the next day until we get two days off!

    Now there's something to look forward to every day.
     
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  19. GtnHrdAgn1

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    So I don't have a lot to celebrate here on day 1, but I will just say that I'm proud of myself for telling my wife about my most recent lapse. Usually I just cover it up, swallow the shame alone and push her away for a couple of days until I feel better. Obviously I don't feel good about lapsing and I certainly didn't feel good telling her, but I at least did something better this time.
     
  20. David2018

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    Almost went to a chat room today but stopped myself for a few seconds and thought about it. I know it won't be worth it in the end. I'm not doing it.
     
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