35 and Older Accountability Group

Thanks! Should we refrain from posting here until let in?

 

Reset again. Mismanaged stress and using PMO as a remedy, which doesn't work well at all.

And i know this. Lol.

I will continue abstinence.

I will not be a slave to my urges.

 

Saturday night login. Feeling good. How many times have said that b4.....?

 

And you will prevail, be the man!

 

Welcome to the new people. If you post anything triggerish I block ya for a bit while you get the hang of it. Nothing personal I just need to keep the group positive for me. Interest in my recent brand of poison came from this group.

I'm in a horrible spot. I was off to a good start to the year and it imploaded. Going to login every day and keep the tracker up to date. Trying to get motivated too. That's step 1 for now.
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Mine wasn't exactly like that, as I have explained earlier. The intent nor the lust were present and I was very happy all throughout the 90 days, but I couldn't stop myself from peeking every once in a while, and I decided to turn those peeks into mindful exercises looking at the ugliness of P-subs.

 

Day 2 and feeling good. Sunny day today with my family, hoping to soak up some vitamin D and feel alive. Be well.

 

31 days free from P

What is it like?
FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEdom
Free to be clean
to be pure
to be happy
to face my (real) challenges
to breath air
to go out
to meet people
to smile and to love and be loved

There is so much on the other side, ITS WORTH IT!

Keep it up!

 

Awesome, thanks! Day 3 and feeling strong.

 

Today will be day 6 around 10pm. Its going surprisingly well. I am so very committed to being done porn!

 

Updated my daily routines to maximize time and focus, allowing for ample and focused time for: prayer, fitness, work, and family. 5 days.

 

Hello friends. It was too much for me. A week ago my stress and despair was building and I was seeking emotional escape. I managed to stave off my old coping habit for about a day, thanks to support from my comrades here. But then I peeked at some very mild P. It planted the pernicious seed in my addict brain and it kept gnawing at me. I peeked again, and then the physical stress started building. I spent an entire day with this feeling of extreme discomfort and obsessive thoughts. In prior situations like this I would go outside and exercise, but I was stuck indoors because of work and inclement weather. I made a conscious decision to relieve myself. I thought a lot about the nearly 4 month streak I was about to end, and how I would be disappointing my community here. But in the end, I just had to get it over with and move on. It was the shortest of PMO excursions. Perfunctory in nature, entirely devoid of pleasure. I really don't feel bad about doing it. In the big picture, if I go four months at a time, that's 3 times per year of bad behavior. I'm ok with that, I think. There is big part of me that wants to be completely PMO-free, and I will maintain that mindset and spiritual direction. My biggest challenge is dealing with the problems in my marriage. I'm pretty sure if my marriage wasn't in shambles, I'd be much stronger in battling this addiction. Stay strong everyone.

 

Worn out and tired. Dealing with stress the wrong way. I know better.
Mood swings are a more than common today and have been for the past month. Could this be seasonal affective disorder? or circumstantial? Whatever it is i want to feel better than i do right now.

 

Reset last night - again.

Now, it's time to get to sleep and have a productive day tomorrow.

 

A full night's sleep is strong medicine. Tomorrow's a new day!

 

Day 4. Ready to rock.