35 and Older Accountability Group

Checking in! Going to be hot so taking the boy camping for the weekend. Being out in the woods, swimming in the river, sitting by a fire, always brings a measure of clarity and reflection, and I’m looking forward to cleaning out some mental cobwebs. I’m definitely wrestling a bit with the loneliness factor of being a single parent, but also working hard on building a life and attitude that feels whole and fulfilling without needing a woman to complete it—a fairly radical shift for me. I’m not there yet but am on the right track!
Be well everyone

 

Checking in.

Feeling okay, very optimistic about this next run, fingers crossed can get out of this miserable slump.

P.s insane numbers right now, the highest I've seen since my time here, you lads up there are doing fantastic, truly an inspiration. Well done!

 

Afternoon all. Been a while since login in to the site but have returned as I've been on a decline. Thankfully this post appeared and believe me its like a breath of fresh air being 35 myself. All of our journeys differ but our main out comes are very similar. That being the ability to rid ourselves from these hidden secret pleasurable acts and destructive behaviors. I've lost a medical career over this and I'm still unsure where i sit in this world. Nevertheless I will not quit trying to overcome something I have been practicing from the mid-nineties. I wish everyone energy, endurance and determination with their journey. It is also nice to see the community remains strong. Stay Blessed.

 

Struggling some. Can anyone recommend an audiobook ?

 

Sunday eve check in. Another poor week.

 

Checking in. Happy Father’s Day to all you dads!

 

Excelent work !! Don't give up!!

 

Checking in ... tough times for me I've lost 3 very close people this year 2 were close relatives.
One day at a time. One year at a time.

 

I'm working my way through Universal Man Sexual Self mastery, I'm finding it very helpful. I'm watching the youtube videos but I believe it is available on a podcast, somewhere.

 

Having a tough day today. I'm torn between giving in to the urge to relapse and not wanting to lose the good no-PM streak I have built up so far.

I had a good weekend. But I'm finding it really hard to get started at work today. My mind is not where it should be. I'm procrastinating a lot. This is going to take a bit of effort.

 

Good luck! Getting over 50.days is great. It's not worth it to reset. Stay strong!


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Kind of frustrated. I have triggers but they are all dumb. I truly don't like PM on any level yet I keep falling back into it.

 

Be strong ! My friend

 

@Low Tide High Tide and @GottaBFree Keep the faith brothers. You are strong enough, and you are worth it. We believe in you!

Had a dream last night where I started looking at porn, then in the dream I was so angry that I threw my computer and phone on the ground and lit them on fire. I think this sobriety thing is starting to enter my subconscious : )

 

One of my triggers is being tired and I go on the phone/laptop to deal with fatigue for some reason.

Caught myself doing that today so I just got up and went and laid down outside lol. Simple and silly but effective.

 

I'm having similar dreams all the time now. The one I get a lot is the characters just standing around me with their arms crossed and I'm just smirking back at them lol. My mind is starved of its fix and always tries to trick me into relapsing. But the intensity of the urges has lessened by a lot and that's a huge relief. The benefits motivate me to keep pushing forward, in the hopes that it will lead to genuine improvements in my life.

Keep fighting, everyone and all the best to you.

 

Earlier i am in the state where i am not able to go even for one day without M
But today my streak ends after 10 days .
I feel little bit bad but somewhere inside me i feel good for going 10 days without M.
I hope things will change and i am also able to go for even more higher peaks of P free life .

"10 beautiful days "

 

Hi all...relapsed again yesterday and binged and felt pretty rotten but today I am starting afresh and aiming for another 30 days minimum.

 

Checking in….I’m grateful for the group’s support, I don’t think I could do this without it. I’ve had a lot of health problems the last year and some housing issues too….all out of my control. This is one thing I can control and I’m determined to. If I can get control of one thing in my life maybe other good things will follow. Thanks all!