35 and Older Accountability Group

Good morning everyone,

Day 7 here. 6/7 days completed on my 7 day challenge.

 

Funny thing just happened, so checking in here to keep me accountable. I fly out on Friday for a long trip that is time-dependent, and just got an email saying one of my flights has been completely cancelled. Given where I live, that most likely means I have to drive 4 hours to the next closest airport to make it down on time. As I was navigating the airline call service (it'll be another hour at least and thankfully they provided a call-back option) a P scene popped right into my head. Not just the urge to PMO, but a specific scene as real as if I were actually watching it. Freaked me the F*** out so here I am. I don't feel in any true danger but it was astonishing how quickly a moment of stress produced an immediate reaction to PMO, even after nearly 6 months clear. An unwelcome reminder that we are always just a few keystrokes away from a relapse, regardless of sobriety time.
So I think I'm going to go jump in a river and then get back to work.
Be well everyone

 

@jaberwaki crazy story, thanks for sharing. Good work not giving in!

 

Thanks. I'm happy for this but so sad for the relatives I have lost. I'm in pain but counting my blessings and that gave me the strength to keep going.

I have passed one year but I've been thinking on start over the challenge by reseting my counter, though I'm clean. I think it would be better for me to keep it one day at a time, and one year at a time as I did this streak. This way my counter won't stop working on +500 and I will always know that I'm moving forward which helped me a lot.

Let's keep fighting and moving forward together!

 

Just finished the 7 day challenge and on to the 14 day one.

7/14 days completed, Day 8 here. Hope everyone is doing ok.

 

Had a good 14 days but ultimately gave in due to a combination of tiredness and stress. I sound like a broken record.

In analyzing what went wrong, I must say I started off the streak well with some keystone habits that I think should help, mainly a small meditation followed by a healthy dose of self talk. Unfortunately I stopped doing that in week two as I went on a trip and came up with excuses to not do it, but really, I should have made it a priority. I think it would have provided clarity in the moment.

Feeling very frustrated right now with the 14 days lost, but i'm really trying to take something away from it so that at the very least it is a learning experience.

 

First, very sorry for the loss of your relatives, mate. Regarding your counter, I think you should continue without resetting it, as the amount of time that you've been clean has inspired so many of us here, myself definitely included. Please consider continuing onward until you hit that 500+, which we know you will. Your choice entirely, but I know that your success has made a major difference here.

 

Yes ,you are right bro ...Our family group members achievements inspire us .
Keep your count run because at some times we need our achievement to move forward and by watching the score card of 365+ days ,you would motivate to go further .

If you want to reset your counter ,reset after you reached 500 days .

I am new in this journey and not so much experience in this field .
Your counter motivate us .



Yesterday I relapse and from yesterday to today I relapse 3 times ,its like a chain to me and if I relapse it will continue for some days . I want to break the chain .

 

This addiction killing me
It takes my every bit of happiness and still I am unable to leave it .
Please god help me .
Will power alone is not enough to tackle with it .
Please share one things other than will power that helpful in this .
I feel like my subconscious is full of P, M, O ,fantasies,lust.

I pray with my deep heart because I know the pain of this addiction ,"please god give strength to every one so that he can tackle it and come out of it and give me also some help" .

 

Checking in after a little time away.

Oh wow, 207 days!

 

Way to go. Amazing work.

 

Checking in. Had a wet dream last night, which is the second in as many weeks after nearly four months without. It’s unnerving because even though I don’t see them as a relapse, I believe it means I’m allowing the wrong thoughts to hang out in my mind, and burrow down into the subconscious. It’s been a hectic few weeks where my routines have been compromised, so I’m going to take some good reflective time and see where I’m allowing cracks to open.
I’ll be backpacking for the next week, which will allow for fantastic meditation time. I’ll check in when I return, which will be right around six months clean!

 

Hey everyone, relapsed here on Day 9 unfortunately.

 

I have read the rules and would like to join this group.

 

I'd like to join if that's ok, thanks. I have chronic headaches partly as a result of PMO and wish to change that. My initial goal is complete abstinence from PMO at least until I get my head pain issues sorted out. I have seen doctors to no avail thus far. I have read the rules. I'm 36. Thank you

 

This has been a good week, but I had a reset this morning.

I'm learning more about my triggers (loneliness, stress, certain memories) and how to manage them (positive action, redirecting negative thoughts.) I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm so much healthier than I was nine months ago when I started chasing sobriety.

Honestly, everything in life is better and easier when you don't spend hours a day on PMO. I know this seems like an obvious statement, but there was a time when it wasn't as obvious to me.

Stay strong guys! One day at a time.