35 and Older Accountability Group

Reset..again. Looked at explicit pictures of the wife and fapped to erotic audio. I messed up. But thats ok, mistakes are ok, I must learn from them. I deleted the picks of the wife and blocked audible after 5 and limited time frames to 25 minutes at a time.
 
Checking in. Strong temptations recently due to some unexpected triggers. Trying to cope as best as possible. Realized I still have a lot to go with my personal issues. It's disappointing after being at this for most of the year. At the very least, I have a better understanding of what needs to be addressed.

Stay strong, gentlemen, and never give up.
 
Bad reset today.

After something like this, I'm tempted to say "the day is ruined" (which could be an excuse to use again) or "I'm failing." I have to remind myself that 1. there's still time to make today a good day, in spite of my mistakes and 2. the only real failure is giving up. Looking back over my journal, I've also realized that my average time between resets is getting longer; 6-7 days instead of 3-4 days a few months ago. So that's a small victory.
 
Day 28 and doing well.

In a recovery program for porn addicts, I learned about the most prevalent triggers:

B - Bored
L - Lonely
A - Anxious
S - Stressed
S - Self-Doubting
T - Ticked-off
E - Exhausted
D - Depressed

What I also learned is that when urges come, it's up to me to identify the triggers in order plan a counterattack. This has helped me greatly and I hope it does for you, as well.
 
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