35 and Older Accountability Group

Going to do better. Been in a slump

 

Feeling a bit more in control again now. So grateful to have a reliable ap on here, makes all the difference.

 

Checking in. 23 days i think. Am feeling ike fog is lifting but have been having some mild urges today. Keeping busy and acknowledging the urges but not acting on them. Busy weekend ahead, hopefully next week will be quieter. Pleased with my progress so far. Each time i see a hot girl i just say to myself "great job god!" as per advice of @football81!

 

Checking in...constant urges bothering me again.

 

I had the same yesterday night at 11 PM...I decided to just go out and walk..for 30 minutes. It's unbelievable how this small step changed my mood for the better and helped me clear my thoughts.

 

Day 16. Going strong. Energy building up.

 

Isn't it amazing the way your energy does build up after a couple of weeks. Also mood and ability to deal with stressful situations, I find I find it easier to walk away from things and just "let go"...

 

Keeping it real. Another day, 18 I believe though I may be 1 day ahead. At least it's another day more than yesterday, which means more energy to continue on.

Each day is stored in the bank. Giving in is like losing money, only worse.

(Actually today is day 17, i think lol)

 

Day 12, feeling much better.

 

Verily, walking is an excellent antidote to urges!

 

Start of a reset today. Kinda tired of returning to day zero, I'm in a twilight zone loop where I'm constantly reminded of my lacking self-discipline. Hopefully the redundancy of it's enough to forgo P&M going forward. In my mind, the ninety day threshold seems unattainable. I should delve more into the boards to maximize the amount of others holding me accountable. Maybe the daily journal thing could prove useful, but mostly I do not want such exposure.

 

Ok. Today is officially 18 days. I had gotten ahead of myself. Working out at the gym, cardio and resistance training. The best.

Great way to normalize. Also to be in a physically active environment. Yes there are women present, the secondary reason I go to the gym.

I believe on a subconscious level there is a constant mode of attraction even when we do not realize it, and knowing that I am in the best condition to receive others attention makes this journey worth so much more than the effort I put into it, even though I am not in the market for a mate. All options are available, though I do not have to partaketh of.

 

I have read the rules and would like to join the group. Cheers

 

I have read the rules and would like to join this group.

 

GO back to bat cave, Just kidding

 

yesterday there was a party, for a my hotel pre-opening, I really felt overwhelmed by the amount of half naked ladies, but somehow, I wasn't really horny or something, but urges started to build up after starting to get tired from having flu, at that time all I wanted is to go home and just be with my family, I really hate crowded, loud places.

I think the urges started after I felt hopeless against some bullies at my work but at the same time they're giving me a good reason to strive to become stronger version of myself, I was looking to start learning some martial arts but timing is bad as I work on shifts.

all in all if I had to choose between Nofap and my work , I definitely choose the first, this is how serious I'm in my recovery.

 

Gave in
Thats that
Starting over
Looking to break streak of 19 days

 

I have read the rules and would like to join the group. Thanks for creating this group!