35 and Older Accountability Group

you'll get a better one trust me.

 

Check baby check baby 1-2-3

Big week - going to try to focus this next week.

 

I've made it into the top ten and finally earned an emblem.

(one of my many spirit animals on full display).

Don't want to get too big headed though because I frequent theaters too often. Please consider my post a humble brag and not arrogance run amuck.

 

Is it posssible for the moderator to add me to the group please
@artifact

 

Gave in today. Actually surprised I went as long as I did.

Definitely made some progress and I look forward to starting again, this time adding more time to my abstinence.

Keeping track of progress is the secret to success. Otherwise its a free for all.

 

checking in , I can't believe I went this far, thank you all for making this journey worth taking, my life's quality has become better but I'm not stopping there , I want to continuously develop my personally to reach a point where I can truly live my dreams. it was a hard thing to do and I wish you all you'll make it and the world in deferent perspective , it's much more colorful and vivid

 

That’s what I found as well. I did much better working with the group then not because it made me accountable to myself. And it’s nice to know we aren’t alone. The initial quiting because the group won’t magically save me is true but there’s no question it helps though. In the end we stand alone vs our addiction. But it’s nice to stand alone together lol.

Had to reset the counter again. Going to check in tomorrow morning. Need to get back on track for real.

 

Wow that sounds amazing. So jealous! Love meditation retreats.

 

Crap. Total addict behavior last night. Didn’t even want to PM but “hey I can. So I guess I’ll be a slave and do something I don’t even want to even though it hurts me. Going to bed. Check back in the morning. At least the counter will ne back on 1 as long as I don’t act like an idiot adict tonight.

 

Not going to give up

 

Checking in...
Don't quit, rest and restart!

 

Made it through the night. I’ll check back in tonight. Need to get going with something and I’ve got bad habits to break right now.

 

Thanks everyone for the encouragement over these last 9+ months. It has been much appreciated.

I am no longer in monk mode but still no P or M so I think my streak is still intact.

I believe the changes I've made during this time are a major reason I'm currently seeing one of the most amazing women I've met in recent years. She wouldn't ordinarily be someone I would've thought I had a chance with in the past because of her stunning beauty and all of my old, negative perceptions of myself. That was the old me!!!

 

That’s amazing! Glad you are living the good life!

 

Back to day zero.

 

Great day and engaged with life the right way. Had some stress/ something that REALLY pissed me off about work and time to kill tonight - just got to keep in mind what I want and watch bad habits.

planning to check in the morning as well. Need to get something going and 1/2 day at a time and focus is all that is working for me right now. REALLY bad habits and addict behavior at play, so that’s why I’m checking in a lot.