35 and Older Accountability Group

Into day 3. I find myself searching for any escape route from my calculus obligations. In the morning I sleep in. Then I go outside and do some orange tree maintenance as if that is pressing. I eat my breakfast just before noon and idle around the television while my great uncle (I laugh typing that designation since he seems anything but that) watches The Twilight Zone. P&M come to mind when I get one problem into my homework. After I force myself to knock out this section of my homework; I'll go for a jog followed by a cold shower. Lastly, I'll resign myself to a homework binge in desperation to catch up before my procrastination bites me in the ass. Even if my calculus efforts leave a lot to be desired, at least I shan't let that be an excuse to give in to P&M.

 

Checking in...been a while but on a good streak and feeling positive. Lots going on in my life and I need focus and energy and that means Nofap as much as possible

 

Had a few small mis-steps, but one thing I like about this group is that it keeps the damage pretty low. Relatively speaking, I've pm'd less than 10 times this year, so I can't get too upset. I am working through some issues and believe I have them sorted out, or at least for now.

 

Last night before bed I was scrolling through YouTube shorts and a highly sexualised and perverted add is just randomly there..

Got super triggered, even experiencing some guilt and shame now for even seeing it.

The lady on the add was extremely provocative and attractive to the eyes.

That's someone's daughter and this stuff is harming young boys who shouldn't be exposed to such stuff at an immature age.

 

I have read the rules and would like to join this group.

 

today, I reached a new record, 5 months in I couldn't be more proud of myself , the last few days I felt I started slipping , and today on YouTube I watch and erotic video for 30 seconds , after that I took step back after realizing that I'm going to that shit hole again, I'm still wondering why is that happening, may be because I felt over whelmed by thinking I'm hopeless in some areas in my life.

 

Starting over.

Need to find a way to lower my stress, it's playing a big part in my failings right now.

 

breathing excelsis and taking evening walks helped me a lot reduce my stress

 

Day 0 but thats ok. Gives me another opportunity to try again tho this time aiming at smaller goals and then increasing as I reach each one. I consider this endurance training.

 

Thanks so much. Couldn't have made it this far without the support of the group and this site in general.

 

Thanks very much.

I have activated it a couple times now, but I think it is broken for me.

 

I FINALLY signed up for Muay Thai class, paid for 3 months in advance, I really recommend everyone to learn martial arts, because it will boost you confidence and a lot of benefits

 

Starting afresh after a relapse caused by stress and overwhelm. That seems to be my trigger so need to work on that

 

Today is day 1
I expect to recharge somewhat by day 3
I will remain mindful

 

Don't do like I did and reset now. I am trying to work my way out of this loop and forgot what the first few weeks was like. Double down on the work you do to move your energy in other directions. Go towards the light You are doing great and I plan on working my way to your level soon.

Very nice.

I also signed up for some group fitness (not martial arts) that I used to do a few years ago. The combination of exercise and being around other people is super stress relieving for me.

 

Relapsed this morning. Need to focus on my mentals, too many fantasies going on and I'm having a hard time controlling them, especially when I wake up but I'm still in bed and there's nothing to distract/focus on.

I think this might be an ongoing struggle, as I work full time, and fantasizing impacts my work, so I have a tendency to tell myself "fap in the morning and get it out of the way so you can concentrate on work later". Not sure the best strategy for this, other than just ignoring my own advice and taking the hit at work.