35 and Older Accountability Group

Same here! I was more driven and competitive the first time round, which I seem to have lost until recently. Did somebody say comeback

 

Today is day 6

 

Temptation got the best of me yesterday. Reset. Not giving up.

 

Almost at 3 days for the first time in a few months. It seems like day 1.5-2 is really really difficult in terms of mental willpower, but it feels a bit easier now. Would love to get to a week for the first time ever, hopefully no more major bumps on the road until that milestone.

 

you can do it , just don't make the same mistake after relapsing

 

Today is day 7

 

Relapsed back to day 0

 

30 days in the wilderness but I'm back to put in a big push now.

 

Was going well but was edging a fair bit, could have kept going but in the end decided that the amount of edging was basically cheating so just reset. Still chasing 7 days, but 3.5 days is pretty good so I don't see a week as being impossible anymore. Also going to start my run immediately, try and avoid the situation where you tell yourself "I just reset 4 hours ago so it's okay to reset again".

 

Just read this thread: https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/reb...masturbate-edge-or-watch-porn-without-orgasm/

Seems like edging should be a total no-go, appears to be worse than any other behaviour. Going to go for a walk and have some lunch, see how things go.

 

Day 4 and getting back into my routine.
Tempted this evening but made it through.

 

great spirit you have brother, the more you go with NoFap the more PMO becomes weirder to you, and staying away from it will give you a relief, and satisfaction

 

Day 1 check in

 

Day 293. As I've been spending more time with the gorgeous women I approached 5-6 weeks ago, I've began to consistently hear her say things I've never heard.

"You have such a grandiose attitude. " I laughed.
"Why are you so hard to please?" I shrugged.
After I refused to do something she requested, "Why can't you just act right?"
Just last night, "I know one thing about you. You love you some you."

Prior to beginning NoFap/Semen retention and all of the subsequent changes, books, new habits, etc, I had terrible self-esteem, no confidence, a low sense of self-worth. In hindsight, I realize engaging in PMO for almost 30 years played a huge role in those negative self perceptions. Eliminating it from my life has really been life-changing!

I use to be so accommodating to women, always trying to do things to please them. I use to treat them like they were the prize. Now I believe I'm the prize!

Thanks, everyone, for all the support and encouragement throughout this journey!!!

 

Reset again this morning.

 

"Lonely road I walk, only road I walk" Mentally, I've been in a dark place. I've always kinda related to this passage from Moby Dick:

Presently, I'm in the madness woe. I'd like to transition to the wisdom woe, but I think I'm dumb so who knows. Crossed my mind a couple times to escape my head with the aid of some P&M endorphin rush, but my motivation to do much of anything is pretty nonexistent.

 

And again. Need to put some serious work in, I think.

 

Relapsed yesterday back to day 0

 

Today is day 9

 

Straightforward couple of days now and feel slightly more balanced.