Last week was a bit mixed, I couldn't concentrate at work. Was caused by, among other things, wrong food (something like an allergy, I'm still trying to find out what exactly it is) and withdrawal symptoms. But the main thing is that I didn't give in to it. I only started a game very briefly but quickly quit it and went back to work.
I also noticed for the first time that images of women came into my head, but I could choose not to go further with that thought. As long as I don't do that, it won't go wrong anytime soon. Because I meditate every day I think I have more control over my thoughts.
The weekend was again great and productive. Visiting friends, taking the family to the park, and I laid the grass!
I also suddenly had the idea to spend my evenings more usefully. Usually I'm watching a little youtube, generally spiritual or self-help videos, which are quite educational in their own right, and often very calm so they don't get in the way of my sleep. But I figured I might as well do something in the garden, like pull weeds, since there's still quite a bit of overdue maintenance and it's actually a very meditative job. So that's what I did yesterday evening. It took me about an hour or so, but the results are great!
Another 7km run this morning. That went well and I think I can go to 8km next time.
I am now well over a month without PMO and video games. I really feel like a different person. I feel much more like working or doing other useful things. I enjoy socializing much more. And I'm a much more fun person to be around. I don't really see how I can ever go back to that measly narrow lifestyle where I'm just chasing short pleasures and digging a deeper and deeper hole for myself.
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keep strong and don't give up!