Hi all, I first want to say that I'm so happy and thankful to discover this community since this problem has been plaguing my life for so long. It became so bad that I was masturbating even 10 times a day absolutely without even thinking about it. And its not only porn but also virtual sex games such as Second Life where I was spending hours and hours which I think its even more dangerous because it is interactive so you are kind of actively engaged it this activity. It became so bad that I was and still am depressed with no hope of ever getting in serious relationship with real person. My social anxiety did a great job to always push me back towards old habit, because who am I think that any real person would want to be with me? That's the feeling I head through my whole life and I'm not even bad looking! And I am educated so why I developed this low self image is unknown to me. It became so pervasive that I started getting interested into gay sex which scared me, and I was seriously contemplating suicide. But then I realized that I can't attach to men I still didn't feel that kind attachment I could feel towards girls but nevertheless I had those strange fantasies that were going against what I believed I am. After 8 days I start to feel I am getting attracted to girls again. Its a strange feeling, it's not that they arose me so much but I start to see beauty in girls. What is terrifying to me right now is time frame for this reboot to be honest with you. Because I read somewhere that although we set goal of 90 days nofap in all reality it is actually 2 months for every year of porn! I am ruffly at around 10 years of heavy use and its so depressing and discouraging to think that if it is true it will take me 24 months or 2 full years to recover. I am still going to try it because honestly I see no other way out. Is there anyone out there who had serious addiction and compulsive disorder like I do for so long who was able to get out of this nightmare. My life is real hell. I want to and need this so badly.