[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

56 days

 

Day 333

 

Day 21 completed.

 

Day 83/365 (119 in my current streak)

 

57 days!

 

27/365

 

Day 22 completed.

 

Day 84/365 (120 in my current streak)

 

58 days

 

Day 23 completed! Yesterday, the urges were so strong and persuasive, it was a long and hard battle. In general, I wouldn't be able to recognize thoughts like "just some memes" or "maybe a youtube video" as harmful. But since my last relapse I have become familiar with the pattern. In analogy, standing at a river bank (in my lows) I naturally feel the urge to dip my feet in the water. Once I do, that sweet pleasure asks me to take a step further, maybe to knee level, and enjoy the pleasant current. But it doesn't stop there, maybe I can dip myself to waist level? Whats the harm anyway? I am having a great time! Yes, but the currents are too strong now, for me to handle. A small perturbation will throw me off my feet and drown me. This is what happened during my last relapse.

So yesterday when I was at the river bank, and I felt the urge to nearly drown myself, I decided to look at the trees around me, hear the bird songs, feel the sand, etc -- there was beauty there too. Although it takes much effort to do one (low dopamine) thing when you have a killer urge to do another (high dopamine), I pushed throughout the day. In the end of the day, I walked back home without having dipped even a toe. I feel a sense of pride, strength, and happiness as I defeated the urges. I know there will be more days that will test me, but I will remember the lessons and will fight them hard. Best wishes to everyone on their journey!!

 

Day 85/365 (121 in my current streak)

 

59 days

 

Congratulations on fighting those urges. The more victories you have over them, the stronger you'll be next time you'll have to face them. These victories will give you the confidence to fight through these urges and temptations and move past them. Good luck on your journey!

 

Day 24 completed.

 

Day 86/365 (122 in my current streak)

 

140 days without P,
4 days wihtout M completed.

 

30/365

 

60 days! Glad to reach this milestone

 

Day 25 completed.

Awesome, friend. So happy for you! Much strength to you to reach many more milestones : )

 

Day 87/365 (123 in my current streak)

@RBYG_flag, keep up the good work!