Ok, I MOed. Wait a second before thinking I'm an idiot. A few days ago I started thinking about this: I absolutely HATE Porn, it's gross and it doesn't really attract me anymore. I don't think I actually ever enjoied a clean MO session, in my life. From the beginning, every time, porn was always there, somehow. Nearly every time I fapped, I fapped to porn, and if I didn't use porn, well, I imagined everything in my head. Today I felt like I wanted to try what MO feels like without porn. Everything is going well for me in this period, so I decided to give it a try. It happened in the shower. It was fantastic: I focused on myself, my feelings, my penis, I was free from the oppressive lie of porn and I could feel everything going on in my body. That is what masturbating for our ancestors felt like, I think. Then the orgasm came, and I was extremely disappointed. Nothing, I felt NOTHING. And when I exited the shower, I felt powerless and I've been inactive all day since that moment. As I said before, there is no easy getaway. The entire habit is wrong, let's face it. Masturbation pumps out energy from your body and transforms it into a stinky white liquid, that cannot be used for any puropose aparth from eating it (ok I'm sorry you girls out there ahahahahah), that's all it does. Porn trasforms it into a dangerous addiction, but Masturbation itself is NOT a natural thing, it's NOT good. So, what's the future for me? Here it is: STOP! This is the proof that masturbation is useless. Porn isn't a problem anymore. I know enough things now, to understand that the only true way of doing NoFap is to quit fap for good. My journey goes on, counter resetted.
I agree with you. Plenty of people here have the "healthy MO" mindset (apparently that's the "official" stance of this website), but I don't buy it, and never have.
I would say all of the above has been slowly improving over the past year. Im one of the long rebooters on here so its taking me some more time to reboot though my journey is still very non-linear. I am still seeing more changes as time goes on though and im becoming more confident each day. Thanks guys, really appreciate the positive comments and im sure i will be seeing you all here in no time! Keep up the good work
Day 84/365 Coming up upon 1/2 year of no PMO. Porn was a huge detractor to my mental health and social life, and I think I can safely say that even masturbating without the use of porn added nothing worthwhile to my life. Prior to porn, I made up pornographic scenarios in my head to masturbate over, and I was addicted to that. I believed some nonsense idea that I needed it and could not stop. I still have my problems, ADD issues, some financial challenges, difficulty measuring up to a culture of competition, and so forth. Life is not exactly easy. But I am better able to deal with it all without a porn and/or masturbation addiction running me around in circles.
Since I've had the flu for 2 weeks the whole time clean I have so far has been while feeling bad. The thought of porn and/ or masturbation is repellent to me. I wonder how it will be when I'm feeling better. I'll find out soon I hope.
Day 323/365 checking in. I forgot to keep updating this challenge page. 42 days left...till I keep going...one day at a time. Hahaha
Yes.Rekindle your innocent chilhood memories but be a man.Doing NoFap really tests your willpower and for you to confront problems you may be facing.No more running away from problems,but time to stand up and resolve these.
thanks for your reflection. You figured out that the masterbation is wrong . I agree 100 percent, recovery from mo is easy. But it is the porn that makes your brain ill, and Recovery from Porn addiction is harder than any other drug addiction. Your writing shows that your body has not been afflicted by porn much, you've just bound by shame and or a bit cyclical rush of hormones associated with mo, so be happy. And stay away from porn , It starts with wrong curiosity ,ends to the point one lose its capacity to learn ,understand and creat and also lose its willpower to quit porn. God bless
congratulations frequentwalker. Face the problems and tackle them, and go up ,instead of escaping towards fantasies and addiction which adds up to your obstacles in your way to reach your goal ,financial independence, best version of your body, ...
