Ok, I MOed. Wait a second before thinking I'm an idiot. A few days ago I started thinking about this: I absolutely HATE Porn, it's gross and it doesn't really attract me anymore. I don't think I actually ever enjoied a clean MO session, in my life. From the beginning, every time, porn was always there, somehow. Nearly every time I fapped, I fapped to porn, and if I didn't use porn, well, I imagined everything in my head. Today I felt like I wanted to try what MO feels like without porn. Everything is going well for me in this period, so I decided to give it a try. It happened in the shower. It was fantastic: I focused on myself, my feelings, my penis, I was free from the oppressive lie of porn and I could feel everything going on in my body. That is what masturbating for our ancestors felt like, I think. Then the orgasm came, and I was extremely disappointed. Nothing, I felt NOTHING. And when I exited the shower, I felt powerless and I've been inactive all day since that moment. As I said before, there is no easy getaway. The entire habit is wrong, let's face it. Masturbation pumps out energy from your body and transforms it into a stinky white liquid, that cannot be used for any puropose aparth from eating it (ok I'm sorry you girls out there ahahahahah), that's all it does. Porn trasforms it into a dangerous addiction, but Masturbation itself is NOT a natural thing, it's NOT good. So, what's the future for me? Here it is: STOP! This is the proof that masturbation is useless. Porn isn't a problem anymore. I know enough things now, to understand that the only true way of doing NoFap is to quit fap for good. My journey goes on, counter resetted.