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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Dec 27, 2017.
Gaining momentum. Soon I will be an unstoppable force in this journey.
After fapping just one day in 33 days would love to go after a year of sobriety. Marriage is so much better without P and M.
Day 76/365...too long journey too much tired...hope i keep on going
We are doing it guys ! Freedom is upon us !
You WILL fo sho ! Rest !
Day 129/365. 35%. No regrets.
I need to remember how it felt the last time I relapsed. My mind is playing the mental game, where one tells oneself, "Just one time, it won't matter, its not a big deal." Which is a complete lie. Pornography is one big complete LIE. It is not my friend, it tempts one, and then it leaves you with nothing. I remember after my last relapse, I was crying in the shower. I could barely even cry, I felt a like a had a void in myself. It does not fix any problems, or relieve stress, or help sleep, or any of that sort. I remember how ashamed I felt. I felt like a complete hypocrite. I remember how impulsive I felt going forward, how I would do anything to be free from the compulsion, how I just wish I had my days of sobriety back. I will actively work on my recovery from now on. I am utilizing a very good self help site(Recovery Nation), and I will join my first telephone SA meetings. I cannot be deceived into thinking it is harmless, not a big deal, etc. I have to keep "it" in front of me. I can't let my guard down. I think I am feeling disillusioned now, it is NOTHING compared to how I feel after relapsing and regretting what I have done. It is the worst looking back and thinking a few hours ago, was sober. I can barely look my friends in the eye after that. This storm WILL pass. I have to forgive myself and move on. I am at nearly four months. I can't just throw away that kind of hard work. I will keep fighting.
I relapsed on Thursday after going 1 full month without PMO. I've taken a few days off from the site to re-evaluate what I want to do now and how to proceed. It seems like the strategy that will work better for me is to do the 30 day challenge forum, then the 90 day challenge forum and once those are accomplished, I will rejoin the 365 day challenge forum.
Thanks to everyone for your support over the past several months. I may check in again from time to time while I'm working my way back towards a longer time period of noPMO, until I'm ready to resume this challenge.
Hmm alright, I did it too, you all can see. But I want to ask you the same question, I have been asking myself.
Is this our limit? Is this how far we can go? Are we no better then those guys who spend their day in and day out in bars drinking to their death, struggling with addictions, relationships, stable life. Is this it?.
I SAY HELL NO. TO HELL WITH WHAT OUR ADDICTION SAYS.TO HELL WITH OUR URGES. WHAT MATTERS RIGHT NOW IS THAT WE ARE BORN FOR GREATNESS. WE ARE BORN TO BE A WARRIOR. WE ARE NOT THE ONE WHO WILL SUFFICE IN SMILE. WE ARE HERE TO CLAIM THAT BIGGER PRICE. THE BIGGER LIFESTYLE. A BETTER INCOME AND A BETTER VERSION OF OURSELF. MY BROTHERS, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF MYSELF LACKING AND WATCHING ALL THAT SHITTY PORN AND FEEL LONELY. ITS TIME TO MAKE OURSELF. IT IS TIME TO LEARN NEW SKILLS. ITS TIME TO LIVE THE LIFE WE ARE BORN TO DO. DO YOU KNOW WHATS UNREAL? OUR SEMEN CAN PRODUCE A NEW LIFE AND WE ARE WASTING IT ON A LED SCREEN. WE WILL NOT!!! NOT ANYMORE.
THE FACT THAT I HAVE ASHAMED MYSELF WITH THE ACT OF DOING RELAPSED, AGAIN AND AGAIN, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.
NOW THINGS ARE GONNA CHANGE. HARD MODE PEOPLE. NOT TO ME TO EVERYONE. UNLESS I MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF MYSELF I WILL FIGHT DAY IN AND DAY OUT.
SO I ASK YOU ARE YOU WITH ME ON THIS JOURNEY?
You are a beast brother! Don't forget that! Even after a slip you still get up, dust yourself and continue with the battle. I admire that.
Hit my second milestone. The next target is the Tenth. I am proud of myself and patting myself on the back. I got this.
181 days completed.
The above makes a solid battle creed. All the best! You will win!
You have been a great contribution to this challange, I am sure people on the 30/90 day challenge will benefit from you. I hope to see you around sometimes. Good luck and keep up the good life style you have developed