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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Dec 27, 2017.
Another relapse...62 times in 23 days
My energy has returned full swing. I rested well during the night. This will be a good day indeed!
Another relapse ... 4 th time today and total 63 times in 23 days
I don't know what else to say to you except there are huge gains to be had if you don't beat the meat!Don't want to brag,but 21 cms morning wood for me these days so it is worth it, otherwise you are going to do some damage.
You might consider having a phone/computer fast for a week other than designated times... See if that helps? That has helped me in the past.
172/365. No time to rest. No time to get caught up in these thoughts.
174 days until new years.
Checking in .One day at a time.
224 days completed.
Getting stronger day by day!
Back to Ground Zero
Sorry guys! This should have been the 50th day but self-sabotage was invoked. I had this long-standing urge yesterday that I could not shake off. I somehow decided to test myself and viewed some erotic photos of women. I erroneously thought that even if I masturbated, I would not cum. Well, I came very quickly. Disappointed in myself I said to hell with it and started viewing some hardcore stuff and continued to masturbate until 1 AM. I came two more times and right now I feel very depleted and jaded. The lifeforce has been sucked out of me. I really have to get to the bottom of this failure and understand its genesis. That urge to watch porn was too strong and overrode all my defenses. The thing I have to do now is to get back basics, set a 3-day target to get out of the mental fog and depression and do a post-mortem of my failure applying lessons learned.
Though I failed I am not too disappointed. It was my longest streak ever. I am actually confident that I will go on another long streak. My confidence has been sky high and I don't think it will drop unless I binge. Once I go three days without porn, I will regain my momentum and continue on the journey to freedom. This is no time to engage in a pity party. Dust myself, get right up and move on!