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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Dec 27, 2017.
Another good day pmo free.
Yeah I'm absolutely not going anywhere unless I change this habit and also u talked about honesty I think it is a very important point in this journey thank u for ur words
18 days done
The self-made prophecy came true. I relapsed and relapsed very hard. Came at least 5 times yesterday. What is more, I enjoyed it but this morning I feel completely drained. My day has started disastrously with me unable to change a flat tire until I had to call for help. What the hell! I have changed flats before effortlessly. Then my zip to my pants jammed and broke. I have a slight headache and energy levels are low. I now know that orgasm from masturbation messes up one's brain somehow. In one of my previous relapses, I mindlessly left my phone in a banking hall. Another time, after a relapse I left my wallet in a restaurant. Yet another time, I was a raging dick looking for a fight with everyone. This cannot be a coincidence. Orgasm and ejaculation from masturbation cause some kind of chemical explosion in the brain so that I don't function normally for at least three days or so. Back to the drawing board!
Day 0 done, day 1
Welcome to the challenge !
Your presence here is already a victory !
It’s ok man !
Go back to your breath and forgive yourself !
Now you have a deeper understanding of the path.
Welcome to the challenge !
You can do this !
I experienced the same kind of things during my last binge. Of course i enjoyed the orgasms but the price is very high. The differance in my thinking -now in day 4- is unbelievable. I feel like the pmo makes me not only scatter brained and cognitivly dysfunctional but also slightly insane in some strange way. I say that because after only almost 4 days i feel more sane. Thats the best way to describe the change in thinking.
I find its easier to stay on track than to get on track. Today is a new day and its the only one we have. Ive gotten good support from you and your posts . Dont let your one day plunge turn into a week and a half long binge like i did. Wishing you the best brother.
If i was still binging i might have dropped my daughter at her mothers and wasted the day while sinking deeper into the pmo pit. Instead ive already accomplished alot and told my ex that i would pick up my daughter and take her to her school orientation later on and then to dinner. Though i havent acted out in a few days now i cant say ive been free of lustful images in my head. I want to be free of that and believe i will be in time with the right action. I believe spiritual fitness (not necessarilly religous) and healthy attitude toward sex go hand in hand. A la de da attitude of half measures wont do the trick. To truly succeed i must wholeheartedly strive toward the ideal i set for myself. Thanks for all the support.