Bro, congrats for your excellent and taking such good care of you, offering yourself this change of perspective and opportunity to regenerate. Peace !
Reset, day 0. It was in the middle of the night, not fully up and alert, and mo’d...it was fast and no porn and little if any fantasizing. Actually felt really clean, no shame or guilt to speak of. Just have to watch these urges over the next couple days. Keep coming back, don’t give up, work with the difficulties, cultivate a good life, one day at a time.
135 days. Whether you're being active/productive or just recharging, hope everyone's having a positive weekend.
Another day one day at a time.The last 9 days have gone by quickly. I feel much better and am putting out better energy judging by the way others are responding g to me and to how I feel.
Well. As one orthodox monk said , when was asked by his pupil, that "when our fight with passions will have finished?" "With our death" was the answer. So i start it again. Day 1.
Guys I'm back to 0. Made it 135 days before crashing out tonight. I felt restless and bored and frustrated with my life, and so just ended my longest streak ever for no good reason. I barely even enjoyed it. Maybe I needed to re-discover what I haven't been missing? Anyway what a pointless waste of time and energy. I let myself down and feel like I let you guys down too. But in a way I'm not too bummed about it. Noticing how I rapidly escalated from just "peeking" at a few sites to full-on binge mode just makes me realize a little more clearly, what I already felt deep down ... that I just have no middle-ground with P and my only path forward is banishing it from my life altogether. I'll probably stay on this thread since I've previously completed the 30/60/90 day challenges, while this one still remains elusive for me.
