If you only watched that scene has no problem because that's not porn, it's a P-sub and it's not so much erotic than porn and The Witcher had nudity scenes in the video game too. Hope you have a better streak next time, also, i truly relapsed, 2 times at night. I play Dante's Inferno 1 hour ago, that game have nudity but i didn't fap, we are being hard on ourselves, if we block all mature content today we will see only movies, series and animation for childs. I feel that i need these P-subs because i think that without these things I'll be sad, i know this is not true, but my brain will feel miss of this type of content because this involve video games, series, movies, animations and i like all of them, all my friends will talk about it and I'll be uninformed about that talks. Don't judge yourself too much.
It's my day 0, relapsed guys, I'll not lie, i want porn most of the time because i feel lonely, i feel bad when i see people kissing on the street. I just wanna be a robot sometimes.
stay strong my friend, remember that the primary reason for your loneliness is your addiction, when you start kicking it out of your life, it makes connecting with others easier.
I appreciate you encouraging me. I feel better. Yesterday, I was in self-hating mode. Yeah, it is practically impossible to avoid erotic material today. However, in my opinion, whatever causes me to think about MO whether in a 'soft' form or p-sub is still porn. Until I get to a point where my body does not react to such erotic or p-sub material which I may view accidentally, I have to avoid it to the best of my ability. Now that means ensuring that before I watch anything I must research beforehand whether it has erotic scenes. This addiction is not a joke. I once read somewhere and I don't remember where that even watching soft porn for a few seconds is enough to reactivate the neural networks in the brain associated with the addiction. I understand your point about not being hard on myself and yes I was extremely hard on myself yesterday even asking what is the point of fighting if I will keep losing the battles. On the other hand, I must mitigate all circumstances that lead to relapse and that means a zero-tolerance policy.
1 day down I was so depressed yesterday, I did not even think about going on a binge to escape that state. But, I am feeling better this morning.
It seems Xmas has a negative effect on single people. It amplifies ones awareness that their single. Don’t let this control you guys. Your not in this alone. Another bad thing is around this time triggers are more readily taken : alcohol, high quantity’s of sugar, breads etc... This things weaken your resolve (or do in many ppl). Avoid the triggers and the battle will be won easier.
