@Don80 continue with this attitude as you listed as and this cycle of guilt,regret,remorse and criticizing will never end.Criticizing women or friends will not help, find out whether you are really aware while masturbating or you are masturbating with hand criticizing the act at the same time with mind because of your preconceptions of sex, that it will lead to infertility or loss of vitality. What is this why dont you accept the desire of having sex or lust, lust in itself is not bad. I will telll you a very significant thing listen carefully,you will never come out of sex or masturbation if you keep judging it fighting it supressing it or condemning it , only way is it to accept it, accept it that you are sexual, accept it that you are lustful ,accept it that you are full of desire. The problem is that you dont want to accept yourself your---self the self that is you that is desire, hatred, lust , greed , pleasure seeking this is the current you ,, you dont want to acknowledge your current self and the moment you relapse your mind fabricates another end of the spectrum, that is to be become monk or saint or achieve vitality ---this is another desire which you want to gain from nofap. Who tells you to do nofap, i tell you to experience sex to its highest peak you do one thing dont do sex for 30 days and have sex you will feel pleasure that you have never felt before ,, eventually when you will learn the art of having sex that is to slow down the process so much that the process becomes timeless,,currently you are seeking orgasm which is so small, the energy drowned is huge but there is also pleasure so you are not able to leave it. i will tell you one thing you havent experienced sex at all. I am not saying that sex will give you the ultimate satisfaction but if you be arwareof the process without judging with your society fabricated mindset, you will see that you dont need sex at all. You can only become free of sex when you dont criticize it accept it and meditate on it . I can assure you the point you mentioned above will not help you because that hasnt come out of you, you just felt guilt and wrote it . I will tell you a secret that when you orgasm you become thoughtless were you aware of it, i am sure you werent , incultate awareness in your life thats all no discipline awareness while eating, awareness while speaking, awareness while going to have sex, awareness while you are openig a porn website, remember yourself while doing any act and if your awareness and if your awareness allows you to do bad , do it who is anyone to stop it . Don"t join nofap because you were having guilt or something join when you REALIZED that sex is useless, it cannot give me what i seek, then you will know what is to be really free. Freedom requires constant effort awareness and acceptance.
What do you mean? So what do you suggest? I'm checking out various approaches. Haven't found my answers yet? I'm open to advice as long as it's constructive. You can send me private message or a title of the book that helped you. The list in my signature is another attempt to burn it in my brain to handle it. Some people repeat affirmations - I chose this path.
