37 Y/O Male Trying to regain some control!

Hey so how do I start. I’m a 37 year old gay man that has really known porn most of my life that I can remember. That has changed over the years for sure. I come from the time where dial up internet porn was king! Pixelated images and videos that took forever to load. All the control I needed was in one had that was it! I have had relationships here and there but nothing worth mentioning as a true success and I directly blame my addiction on that. While I can go two or three days without PMO it has always caught up with me. I can keep myself busy with other task I have plenty to do but the P just really get to me. That could be in the form of literature or Reddit and I find I loose myself for hours. I’m ADHD and I will become Hyper fixed on it. It’s recently got so bad I just can’t sleep and I have said enough is enough! I want my control back. While I find myself to lean a little kinky (that’s okay for me) I hate the person just that O is leading me to become. I’m totally new and have not a freaking clue what I’m doing. I’m throwing caution to wind and becoming hyper fixated on finding a healthier me sexually and physically! Today is day 0! Please send help!

 

Thanks that’s my goal for this evening when I would be wasting my time. I’m hoping to spend it refocusing it.