38 days and I fapped because i had a panic attack during my sleep

So the title says everything. I went to sleep regularly yesterday when at appx 1:30 after falling sleep i was having some sort of nightmare which woke me up with a panic attack. I woke up super fast and felt like i was going to faint. then everything relaxed once i talked to my parents etc.. i havent had a panic attack in like 2 years and a half. All of the sudden this happens. so i thought what change have i made that may have induced this attack. honestly only thing that changed is NoFap or porn. I was feeling great the first couple weeks, i still was ! but then yesterday that happened. i couldn't sleep... 5 am hits still no sleep, my mind is blurry and confused. So i thought that this was maybe the reasons. so i decided to do it. Did it 2 times. i did get more relaxed but at the same time i was like damn, what about my nofap streak :/. But at the same time i havent watched porn in like 3 months already, and that was the main issue. I also dont want to be fapping every single day because i dont like self gratification as often. My question is, what is the end goal for some of you guys ? im not going to stop fapping forever of course. I do plan on stop watching porn permanently. Do you guys have any thoughts ?