hi everyone, Am 40, have been watching porn since I was 12, when a friend introduced it to me. Many failed relationships. Low energy, coping with shame. Started meditating 6 years back, and made a commitment to not have sexual relationships without a long term commitment, have not had sex since. But the almost daily online porn has not stopped. The awareness from meditation makes the shame and feeling of hypocrisy worse. The only time I can go for 1-2 weeks without it is when I am on meditation retreat sharing a room with fellow practitioners. Really want to uproot this, seeking support from the community here. PMO Day 1 of 90. Can feel some anxiety already. Thank you for reading! Any advice will be much appreciated.