Good morning everyone. I was fortunate enough to came across NOFAP site this morning and read about other souls issues that I can relate myself to. I little background about myself. I'm a 42 year old male, been constantly masturbating since I discovered this flash pleasure sensation when I was a child. I AM A PORN AND MASTURBATING ADDICT. There so many thoughts going through my head right now, as I'm laying at the guess room, trying to analyze myself. Reflecting on what if or what would have been dozen of thoughts. I have no childrens and have a steady girlfriend/boyfriend relationship with a wonderful female that is -100 interested in sex. Which in part, I should be taking advantage of. Since it help not having the pressure to engage in sexual activity. It is bad and good you might say. I am, or atleas have been for all of these year. Of the opinion that masturbating an failing to sleep like a baby post masturbating, keep me out of trouble from engaging in sexual act with the wrong person and having to be out there hunting for a sex partner. Then I met my girlfriend and desperately tried to have her engage in porn type of activity sexual encounter. Lucky for I guess, she hold true to her principles and didn't even gave it a try. Almost costing me our relationship. I ask myself, did this religious bad habit is the reason why I didn't accomplished the regular Joe wife and kids family protocol that humans automatically grown to? Could I have accomplished 1000 more that what I am today? I will never know, but one thing for sure, is the fact that I want to quit. I want my last 20-30 on this planet to be full of energy and self-control. My sexal relationship with my girlfriend is next to nothing. She doesn't and have never engage in oral sexual encounter and other sexal activity between us that are desire by most males. I haven't breakup the relationship, because she is one of a kind when it come to been a great person, which I will never give up over sexal activity desire. Please express your opinion on why do doctors said that masturbating is healthy for you, since post masturbation you feel drained and pretty worthless to do any outside activity till you properly recover from this act? My guess is that is just another way to keep people sick and going back to their income generator machine. Girls/Guys, I hope that I can pull through and find the support I need on this problem that have dictated my life for the past at least 30 years. Thanks.