May 1 Today i am juat starting the training. Consistency is the key for success. Thats the thing i missed all this years. I always go back to coomer life because deep down i am not prepared for a new life of discipline and good things. I am always in a safe zone where i can fap and enjoy. I just wasted a life. 25 years had been wasted for nothing. Some guys got pleasure from sex, and fools like me watch it and fap. They got pleasure and what did i get.?
The people in porn get money and pleasure for me i get the address of a weak man. I was always the beta, who fail in convincing or making a woman happy. I am always a loser. Idk why my life sucks. Somedays before i just saw a women, who previously had given me chance to f..k her. But i being a fap addict act like a weird man and i ghosted her. Now she is with her new boyf, i just saw her some days back. She told me " you are a pathetic loser" and she flirt with her new bf infront of me. At that momant i just want someone to nuke, where i stand or i want to explode. I was feeling a ton of regret and sadness. I was a loser loser loser . oh god what a pathetic soul.
May 2 Major deppressive episode is slowly starting. But i will keep my shield up always. I won't fail this time. A clean month of may is my dream. For 20 years i am struggling to get a month clean. This time or never.
I failed, today is my bday too. But i failed. So its no point to remain in this site. I am leaving. From 2018 onwards i am here still 24 days is only i can do. I am done. People doing100+ and rebooted streaks, how you guys are doing it. I am fycked as hell. I dont know what to do. Today i am having my birthday and yet i failed. Good buy guys.
Anybody here? This seems like a great place to gain ground when attempting a feat of such magnitude as 90 days. If one can do 1 day, then 2 is just a repeat of 1. It seems easy enough. Before long a week has passed and then the following week is just repeat of the first. With 2 weeks accomplished two weeks further should be a breeze as there is proof it can be done. After which 1 month has been accomplished. After that, the following 15 days are half as long as what has already been done. So after that if one chooses to give in, it will be at the end of the task that was undertaken and fulfilled successfully. And since 45 days has once been accomplished, 45 days more is definitely possible. For now I will focus on the 45 days ahead, breaking it down as described above and even further with baby step increments. 1-3-5-7-14-21-30-45...and so on. One day at a time.
Day 45 Planning on quitting after 90, but I always say that then I change my mind. Can't stop thinking about how nice a break would be hahahahaha
Day 46 Mission accomplished. Just a reminder that edging does not satisfy, it will only lead to one going over the edge either unintentionally, or by being unable to turn away at the last second and following through, also unsatisfactory as the brain is at that moment geared to resist the fall. It is better to make a decision to go all the way and get it over with. I remind myself of this often and feel it is my duty to share.
i created this thread bit failed in the journey , i am so happy to see, one of the warriors finally achieved it. thank you. @Jerky
Keep it going. There is only failure when one quits trying. Never quit trying to achieve your goal. That is success!
