45+ Days Report – coming to terms with reality...

In my previous posts, i haven't been completely open and honest about my life in general and how i'm coping with it. This report sheds some light on it;

I graduated from a music conservatory this year in may, majoring in Piano performance and electronic music. And to be completely honest, i don't know if i am cut out to be in the music industry at all! I was too casual in my approach, too laid back, naive, thinking that things would eventually fall into place for me as if was born entitled to it. Reality is far from it. I find myself jobless now. Clueless as to what the next step is from here.

I feel like a failure, who missed out on a golden opportunity that many people can only dream about. My education fees was way too high and i was not able to justify it with my results. I feel that i've let down my family and relatives who actually hoped to see me become someone by pursuing something unconventional.

I've relocated to a new area around my city yesterday night, was really tempted out of stress to give in to the temptation but instead read up on some success stories and avoided the incident.

However, last week i get a message from my faculty that there is an opportunity for me to intern for a studio for 6 months. Perhaps this is my ticket to redemption? I don't know. Maybe there is hope after all...

I will, continue to abstain, seek support and regularly check in to be in this fight. At least, here i can be authentic, openly honest and accountable to myself and others.
My next goal : 60 DAYS

 

That's what i'm hoping for. It's the first step in making a career out of this experience. I won't waste it like all the other times. My life depends on it!
Thanks for the words of encouragement. With a renewed hope, i will continue on this journey even if things look gloomy at the moment.

 

Hey thanks a lot JOE. You seem to be doing well too! True the internship is my only chance at redeeming myself. I should start making careful career choices from here on now. I'll approach things with a 'Growth Mindset' from here on now.
Your support and the whole community's is a bonus!

 

Hey man, thanks for those words of encouragement.

I have started practicing gratefulness in the 30-day challenge thread. Each day i post 1 thing i'm grateful for in my life to precisely get out of this victimhood mentality to a more 'growth' oriented mentality. I'm slowly beginning to feel more blessed with the things i have as opposed to the things i 'desire' since the past week.

Also i'm slowly beginning to appreciate myself as well. This has never happened before in my life since,....well,...as long as i can remember. So yes, while this forum has given me some insights, the next few months, i'll just focus on building myself again through the opportunity i have and reorient my life towards achieving career goals.

SO thank you again!