45th Day - testing PIED: 1st round great success & 2nd round great disaster

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  1. JustinX

    JustinX Fapstronaut

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    I have divided this post into these sections, so you can skip some if you are not interested in them:
    1. Motivation for test
    2. Testing environment
    3. Results
    4. Conclusion
    5. Questions for you

    1. Motivation for test (possible triggers): 3 days ago I finally came out of flatline. Yesterday I went for social dancing, most of it was normal but with the last girl it was very very different. We had epic connection, tension, body-2-body, legs-between-legs, almost eye-fucking mutual eye-contact. During dancing I become rock hard, she definitely felt it, when she did, she start to move her hips even more and closer to me, more passionately with cheeky smile on face. After dance I wanted to say ''let's get some fresh air'' and go out with her but suddenly it came: hesitation. Hesitation that I will not be able to perform properly and long enough as expected, particularly after I read here that after such long time without sex some guys ejaculated after 30 seconds or just from kissing. That would be really fuckin awkward and after my last awkward hook-up where I found out about my PIED I said myself that I don't want experience something like that anymore. The hesitation - the mortal enemy of confidence. So I didnt end up with this lady although it was obvious she was at least as turned on and horny as I was. I knew I need to kill that hesitation otherwise I am not going to have sexual encounter anymore. And the only way how to do it is to test it and get know my timing.

    2. Testing environment: The only choice how to test it without any awkward explanation was to find a hooker. So I did, I found one on AdultWork similar age, face, body as my dancing lady, 50 pounds for hour - that was even cheaper then most my hookups (15 for club entrance + XX for alcohol + 20 for taxi back home + 5 for box of condoms etc). I had to travel 1 hour by bus out of central London but for that price it was worth it. I came to her home, paid for 1 hour and explained her why I came there that I wanted to measure how long each action last. So I put big stopwatch that I brought with me on her bedside cabinet so I could easily see it.

    3. Results: Just before sex in her flat I said I need to pee first, I went to toilet I start to piss and to my surprise I start to piss urine mixed with sperm. ''Fuck not now, not now, fucking bad timing, I need my sperm now''. I thought its over that I would be able to get hard strait away after I ejaculated during urination. But to my another surprise it had absolutely no effect.
    2 minutes after urination she revealed just her tits and I got instantly hard without her or my even touching my cock. After last PIED encounter it felt really great. Erection was so strong, my cock was so sensitive, I enjoyed it much more then I used to. I expected to last about 60 second but I end up lasting 4 minutes of foreplay and then 5 minutes of great blowjob with condom blowing probably biggest load I seen in my life despite pissing semen 12 minutes before. That was really mind-blowing. I didnt expect that.
    I wanted to know how soon I can be ready for the second round. When I was a teenager (10 years ago) it took took me about 15 minuts. So I wasnt able to perform strait away, so I give myself and the hooker 10 minutes break. She went to smoke,I just rested. When she came back, she has lingerie on, and we start to cuddle and have foreplay but I couldnt get hard again. It took me exactly 29 minutes from the first round until I got hard again. She put condom again and we start to fuck. Couple positions however this time erection was not so strong, I was often loosing the erection, I didnt even enjoy it that much. After 20 minutes of this sometimes soft, sometimes hard dick with not very enjoyable fucking my time run out; I didn't cum nor have orgasm for the second time.

    4. Conclusion: The first round was great despite urinating semen just 3 minutes before I had very strong erection, just flashing her tits was enough for me to get me rock hard, I was not loosing erection at all, I lasted full 5 minutes (more then I expected after 45 days). Basically everything I could ever wish for.
    But the second round was disaster, it took me about 30 minutes from first round to get hard again, this time I was loosing erection, semi-hard, I tried to fuck her like that for 20 minutes but it was not much enjoyable, at the end I was still far far from cumming second time.
    It showed me that my hesitation was right and if I had a hookup it would end as a disaster, I would cum soon and then I would not be able to continue for 30 minutes and then it would be not enjoyable fucking for both of us. It showed me that I am still far from being totally rebooted. So I decided not to have any hookups (or any sexual encounter) for next 45 days and then test again.
    All in all I consider this experiment as a success since my aim was not my orgasm but to find out if there is still PIED and to get the new timing how long things last, what I successfully did.I will post results from the next test here after 90th day.

    5. Questions for you:
    How soon can you have second round after first one?
    Do you have strong erection also the second round?
    What do you think about it?
    Any comments?
     
  2. reboot_in_progress

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    Sex It's not only about body. It's about intimacy and personality too.
    So I don't think that you should restrict yourself somehow If you meet a girl that you really like especially if it's a mutual feeling.
    And now be careful, "chaser' doesn't sleep.
     
  3. JustinX

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    Yeah chaser already came yesterday. But that bad boy is so weak and my will so strong, I am kinda disappointed with chaser --> i have expected stronger fight from him.
     
  4. elpamfael

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    Interestinexperiences. As a pied suffering fapstronout myself here are my answers.
    How soon can you have second round after first one?
    Depends, one time i came instanntly but managed to stay erects and continue! Other time could not get it up till after having dozed off for a few hours.
    Do you have strong erection also the second round?
    Sometimes stronger sometimes weaker
    What do you think about it?
    The inconsistency in these findings do have one constant. Whenever erection troubles occur my mind is not fully present either. It's like a self fulfilling prophecy: when i worry i'll have pied i'll hesitate and get pied. When i don't even think about it and am able to fully enjoy my girl, i find my kissing and foreplay is so much more passionate and erection come effortlessly when i need them.
    Any comments?
    It's all in your mind, don't hesitate don't worry, don't think. Just focus on your girl with all your senses, let yourself get horny and just go for it without hesitation! That being said i do believe PIED is often mistaken for performance anxiety
     
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  5. JustinX

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    Well this is true, butnif cant have sex with a woman and at the same time you cant get even hard to normal porn (without fetishes or fantasies) it is crystal clear PIED.
     

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