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46 year old male giving up on alcohol and porn addiction

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by BlueBalls1974, Aug 10, 2020.

  1. BlueBalls1974

    BlueBalls1974 New Fapstronaut

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    I realized I had a serious problem after I broke up after three years with the most wonderful lady I ever met in my life. I had sex with a co-worker as the young hot blonde that was able to seduce me and have an affair with. I am devastated by this.
    The break up made me drink more alcohol and after therapy, research, reading etc I realized I had two major problems:
    1. Alcohol abuse
    2. Porn addiction.

    While I will not address the alcohol abuse here, since this is a community for porn addiction, I would like to address my story with 2.
    I have been watching porn all my life since I was a teenager (like almost everyone), but lack of healthy adult relationships deteriorated my porn addiction even more, not in a sense that I need more extreme porn to get off, but I turned women into a fantasy that I played out with real porn actresses in real porn movies. Yes, I did a few porn movies as well. The young blonde that I had an affair with was objectified by me as a fantasy by watching and engaging in too much porn. I get off on gangbangs, blowbangs, bukkake and facials. That's my fetish. I came to realization that I lost the best woman in my life due to my porn addiction (which happened in the form of playing out my fantasy with the young blonde (28 years old, I am 46). I realized I had a serious problem with porn. That's why I am here and hopefully the community can support me in sharing experiences/accountability and healing from this horrible jerkfest.
     
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