I've been a slave to this behavior since the age of 11. I'm a 46 year old straight male and a Christian. As such, I've always felt as if I was living two lives and it has also deteriorated my self-worth. I'm nothing but a hypocrite. I realize I'm a slave to lust. I've tried to quit many times, especially in the last three years. My goal is 90 days of hard mode. I'm open to whatever method of contact is optimal. Would like to communicate at least every other day - every day might be better.