5 years struggle, severe HOCD, TRANSEXUAL porn

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  1. Supination

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    I'm not a professional but i'm pretty sure that ACT is from the same family as CBT(Cognitive behavioral therapy which is a main method to deal with OCD's and anxieties) so maybe..?
    I think it's better if you ask a professional :)
     
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  2. dr_persistent

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    The goal is to reach the same answer to all your questions about hocd. The answer is: who cares. Am I gay? Who cares. Do I like men? Who cares. I personally don't care about your sexual orientation and you should also feel the same. So the goal is not to answer with yes, no, maybe, I am not sure... Just who cares. This state of mind is invincible!
     
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  3. Supination

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    I love it! Well said!
     
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  4. EnterTheMatrix

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    I am on 174th day of Nofap Monkmode/Hardmode (NoPMO,NoSex,NoEdging) . You should be glad that I read your full thread, so when someone asks me whether I will come somewhere or do want to eat this or that , I just can't give an immediate answer , I take 8-10 secs to think on that and in that period of time the person infront of me gets irritated because of this freezing state of mind as I am thinking , and after thinking I give the final answer . So am I having what you mentioned HOCD?
     
  5. MrAlkali

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    does this mean you are getting better or worse
     
  6. dr_persistent

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    Firt congratulations on 174 days, it's great accomplishment. I hope you see some results. Maybe you are just indecisive. Sorry but I don't see correlation with being indecisive with having hocd. Maybe some kind of pure ocd.
     
  7. FY_33

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    Thanks for posting this, a month ago hocd hits me hard. Because of this i am going back to see girls nude photo on socmed.

    I just hope it Will be healed soon.i am only attracted to big boobs women. But my mind whenever see a man or women, giving me an image of blowjob wtf? If women, i like that, getting hard fast. But if men? DISGUSTING
     
  8. moshingpanda

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    great post, thankyou
     
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  9. helloo1221

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    AMAZING !!! Thank you sooo much for your post,hope you the best
     
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  10. OvoVikk

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    People like you must have been sent by God..
    Thank you very much for this long post
    Hocd to me the worst thing that porn brought to my life
    This community + YBOP has been a blessing to me
    My future children will have to learn about all this effects of porn
    I never wish this on anyone
     
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  11. dr_persistent

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    Thank you my friend. Unfortunately, I am just a regular guy, also a victim of the internet.
     
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  12. Is there any way you can summarize this in a more compact format?
     
  13. dr_persistent

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    Well I wanted it to be long post so people can find more similarities with their problems.
     
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  14. jupiter_saturn_boy

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    Hey man, I can relate to about 75% of this post, perhaps just to a lesser extent but pretty much understand everything you have talked about as it has happened to me over the past two years. How have the last two years since your post been? Any update? Have things improved, do you ever think you will get back to how you were when you were a younger kid around ladies? Thanks
     
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  15. dr_persistent

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    Last 3 years were pretty interesting. A lot of ups and downs. I also fucked up few times, but I am only human being. Last year is great. I am feeling great, a lot of good mood, sex, libido... Anxiety very low, only sometimes. Hocd kicks me once in a 2 months, and it lasts about a minute, so it isn't worth of mentioning.
    I will never be around girls like I used to before, when I was kid. Bit it is normal. I am not in puberty anymore, I don't get erection by just watching a teacher. I now have normal dopamine levels. I am not always in the mood for sex, but it is also normal in relationship.
     
  16. Hcodrum

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    honestly your post is very inspiring, I feel like its worse due to the fact that people misunderstand what many of hocd sufferers are going through, we are not trying to come across as homophobic but are just trying to get ourselves back to who we were before the issue started. sexuality is on a spectrum however I don't believe it is possible for someone who has always seen themselves as being with women could suddenly change to only being with men.

    I myself have been suffering this for only the last few months and it has been the worst hell that I have ever came across, but I do want to ask how long was it before your attraction towards girls came back? I feel like I still have mine but whenever I try to fully focus on it, it'll slowly reduce its sensation which builds my anxiety up even more.
     
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  18. Emanel

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    hi I'm 17 and I find myself in the same situation as you I can contact you I need help
     
  19. TB4

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    Hey man ik im like 3 years late,but could you tell me what software I could use already got a girl in mind but how do i do as you said?
     
  20. Saiyan_Pride

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    Thank you for sharing your experiences, its very inspiring I feel like I can relate almost %100. I'm the same age and similar things were happening to me with the trans porn etc (no offense to trans I just originally straight no hate) plus I have a gf or over 7 years (obviously the porn I started same way you did and escelated from then, I didn't think it was a problem). Your story's very inspiring and I agree 100% with your advice I'm glad you posted mate.
     
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