500 + DAYS SINCE GOD SET ME FREE

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So this 500 day story started in 2019 spring - last day just before summer. I was sitting in church house, bible studies and when prayer time came I wanted to pray for whole summer on a straight road. But then brother in Christ said - Why only whole summer? Better all the time ! And we prayed and since then God is my strength.

My previous stories can be found here -
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/a-year-clean-waited-this-for-3-yeaaars.278988/

Anyway, there can be a lot to be said about that nofap is not my biggest problem, since everyday life still have its hardships and this world is - you know we live in uncertain times.

However, what I like most about this time of staying off PMO is that at 498 days I was going back home from the capital city with a train and suddenly a drunk man sat in front of me. I didn't paid much attention to him, but was browsing my phone and smiling at the screen. Then man said - You look kind. Are you all kind inside too?
I answered that all the good that's in people are from God. I was talking loud so that nearly people who were sitting next to me and in the seats near, could hear my words.
I was not ashamed of God or my faith or that I talk with someone who currently is not so lucky in life(When I asked do he live in the same town, the guy replied he lives on the street). I kept talking about God and in the end man said that he is not ready to give himself all to God, cause he knows if he will go that way he will give himself all.
I answered that I was afraid too but there is nothing to be afraid of.

So yeah it's cool to have all this social freedom, when you know a lot of like-minded people and have confidence from the faith, relationship with All Might Boss(God and Jesus) and that you let your confidence grow in that cause PMO have no longer power over you. With all that in place I don't care what other people think of me, especially strangers. But I care most what God thinks of me.

Also there was few times during 400+ days when I was heart of the company. - There was time 2 years ago in Bible studies when God was not in the first place in my life and after heavy relapse I was sitting at the table all quiet and drained from PMO, almost unnoticeable, but looking bad and unhappy.

So yeah setting priorities straight and staying away from addictions really makes life bold and enjoyable.

So don't be bland, forgettable, and replaceable. Be how you wanna be, and find your passions and things that good for you, worst you can be is average, so don't be afraid to stand out and be unique. God have made us all unique and He loves us just the way we are, even if we don't change, but all you have to do is accept that love and love Him back.
 
Update - now after few hours of gaming League I feel closer o relapse. Before I relapsed many times due to this reason cause games makes your mind unclear so PMO might seem like not so bad option as before. Now uninstalled the game -

Mark 9:43 (NKJV): 43 If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life maimed, rather than having two hands, to go to hell, into the fire that shall never be quenched

It means not literally cut your arm cause you still have one arm left with what to sin, but cut off things that make you sin, like for example, social media, gaming, internet, computer, phone, etc.
 
Success only gets bigger. Progress doesn't stop at 30, 90, or 500 days. It took years to ruin life and it takes years to recover. It seems like relationships only get better and even spiritual battles and relationship with God is only in progress and still moving forward, further and deeper to new higher levels of trust, intimacy, and communication.
New levels of courage and new levels of listening, understanding, and compassion.
 
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