56 days. Thats how long I have gone without PMO. And its crazy becasue when I made up my mind that I was going to do this, all these PMO triggers started appearing. Phone sex line text messages for free trials, my friend, out of the blue, gave me a bag of condoms and lube. WTF?!? The devil is always busy. Which lets me know there is something on the other side of this that he doesn't want me to find or see. But I have to see it. I must know what my life is supposed to be. During that 56 days, I saw dramatic changes in my life. I got more confident, more sure of myself. I have always struggled with anxiety. That shot went away during that time. I loved how i felt. And I gave it all back. Damn lube. So on Monday, I start again. Monday May 16th. I start down this path that I have been trying to go down for decades and havent been able to. My short term goal is 60 days. My long term goal is, well, forever. I don't want this life anymore. Hell, I can't recall a life without it. My struggle has been tough. Its gonna get tougher. But my God I want to be better. I need to be better. I wish all of you people struggling like me peace and strength. I will never stop trying. Ever. Here's to 60 days. One day at a time. Peace.