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58 days

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by silenthunter, Mar 1, 2021.

  1. silenthunter

    silenthunter Fapstronaut

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    So hello guys I'm 22 years old and on 58 days right now. I don't want to write a lot because I feel like I am just about going to start the journey, leaving the not so good days slowly behind me. But I don't know what the future brings so let me pass more time so I can gain more experience. But nonetheless some points for you about the journey so far:

    - I basically felt like shit for most of the time, maybe this is what flatline is alike, so most of the time until now I was on flatline, sometimes feeling really moody (I don't think I was very likable to my family sometimes, hahah). But I read in some posts that this is completely normal and I for myself think that this is normal, too; when the brain is changing you can't expect major sustainable changes in a shorter amount of time, but I don't know I'm just speaking for myself.

    - Nonetheless I've already noticed some small "gains" (but like I said I have a feeling that they are just about going to start, I noticed just some small glances at them until now): Sometimes I was a bit more confident in some situations, sometimes I was more productive. Sometimes I felt a feeling of creativity, wanting to build a foolish hobby of writing (well, I didn't start it yet, but who knows;).

    - yesterday I had a class with a girl who two years ago I also had classes with for over a year. Two years ago she never even noticed that I was there I think. Yesterday on walking past me she smiled two times at me.
    Another hot girl smiled at me a lot but I think she just liked me (she already liked me one and a half years ago when I last saw her, but I think more on a friendship base, she got married last year and I am truly happy for her).

    - overall I feel better than before too, my mind is clearing, but no superpowers yet. But I have a feeling that they might happen in the future!

    So, let me continue the journey, and please pray for me. I think that the key to that I got this far was just prayer, because I didn't do things much differently than the tries before, just praying a lot for chastity (but didn't cut out the internet for example, didn't take any cold showers, didn't eat more healthy, didn't do any sport even hahah. Well I did go out a lot with my dog, but that's it).

    So, if you want me to give you any advice, the only thing that I can tell you is prayer (for me especially the rosary and holy mass, receiving the lord in holy communion and talking with him, I'm catholic).

    Sancte Joseph castissime, ora pro nobis!
     
    Last edited: Mar 1, 2021
  2. KarloMK

    KarloMK New Fapstronaut

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    Amen brother! I couldn’t agree more on prayer and mass, sometimes I want to give up, something tells me I couldn’t do it so why even try. But then I remember the weapons the Lord gave me to defeat this terrible sin I’ve become so obsessed with. I’m on 30 something days, and the confidence has gone trough the roof, but the flatline is ever so present somedays I feel really bad a lot of bad thoughts, but I’m glad I’m not the only one. Keep it up buddy you got this!
     
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  3. silenthunter

    silenthunter Fapstronaut

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    Day 60
    Another small thing I noticed is that sometimes I'm better in conversations. Sometimes (not every time) I just get the flow in a conversation, it's not perfect, but much better than before (before I often just didn't know what to say and conversations were quite painful). Now sometimes, they are quite smooth and I just say what pops up in my head, without brooding what I could say. BUT: way not perfect yet, it's just a small progress I noticed. But I think it's these progresses that keep you going, and I hope that with time they may grow and grow! I'll keep you updated on that, and how they'll evolve.
     
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  4. silenthunter

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    Day 76, quick check in. I have become a crybaby! I've always been proud of being a man who almost never cries (like once in a year and then only when totally alone). I just cried two times in the last couple of days from two different issues (they are really not something very bad) in front of my family. Maybe it's because you get more in touch with your own emotions, I don't know. Well, I definitely have to stop that from happening again hahah.

    Otherwise, another woman from work contacted me to discuss some questions she has about her future/her work with me over coffee. Well maybe it's true and it's really just about work (we'll have to face the same exam in summer) but I just saw her once two weeks ago, I passed by her while she was talking with other people and she glanced at me and gave a flirty smile (by the way it's not the same woman as mentioned in a post above, it's another one). So I'll see how the coffee will be, anyway I'm not interested in a relationship as she is like 10 years older (but very very hot, I'm 23 and she probably like 30). I'll see. Cheers!
     
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  5. SJ88

    SJ88 Fapstronaut

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    I logged in here to reply to this thread because it is very similar to my journey.

    58 days was my highest streak and like you i felt like crap for most of it due to the flatline and i also noticed only small subtle benefits like being better in conversation and feeling a bit more confident etc.

    But my crying experience came within those 58 days, cant remember exactly when. I even made a thread about it on here cos it was weird. I was surprised how many people experienced the same thing. I also am someone who NEVER cries but i cried like a baby on this streak, like i was having a breakdown. It was in the middle of the night.

    Its basically because porn/masturbating is numbing pain that is within. In my case i hated my job and was stressing about finances and stuff. So when you dont have the masturbating and fantasies to divert your mind and numb the pain you are forced to face them head on.

    Unfortunately that was my longest streak and i havent been able to beat it since to reach a level where i would get more benefits. Well done on your streak though, keep going. Have you noticed any more changes/benefits now that you have nearly reached 80 days?
     
  6. silenthunter

    silenthunter Fapstronaut

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    To answer your question, yes I do. The benefits grow slowly but continuously bigger in quality and quantity. They started around the end of the second month. For me, the biggest particularity at this stage is that I really feel as in an intermediate stage. The baseline feeling moved up, mostly no depressed feelings anymore, it's a bit like feeling "neutral". Not great, but not bad either. And it feels as if my brain is changing, so I expect to feel noticeably better in the future.
    Apart from that, due to covid-restrictions, unfortunately I rarely get to meet any women, so I don't really know if there is a lot more female attraction. I noticed some, but yeah those women were too few to say if it's significant or not.

    Yesterday I was at a small wedding of a friend (We were a lot less people than originally planned due to Covid-restrictions) and it was quite stressful for me to talk all day with all those strangers. But it worked out well in the end. And as I'm watching my smartphone photographs from yesterday, I surprisingly look a lot happier on them than on other photos before this streak.

    And, very surprisingly, I started to workout. I've not worked out for the last 4 years because I've thought and I still think that working out is mostly stupid. But Nofap just gives you this amount of free energy and it pushed me to start pushups, sit-ups, etc. It's like "yeah what could I do let's do a set of pushups".

    Another thing I noticed is that my internet use reduced a lot. Mind fog has reduced a lot, too. It started to go away also around the end of the second month, then came back a bit, and now it has reduced again a lot.

    But as I'm feeling quite as in this intermediate stage, I think I will write a more detailed report when I'm reaching 100, 120 days or so. I hope that I will manage to reach that amount of days and beyond. Always taking it day by day!
     
    Last edited: Mar 20, 2021
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