58 weeks without P - feeling rebooted, almost overcome HOCD, more confidence

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  1. diddykong

    diddykong Fapstronaut

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    I've been waiting for a long time to post this up - I think it was last week that I realized that I was finally rebooted. It's been a long but amazing journey.

    I decided to start NoFap on 16th July 2016 - a date permanently etched into my brain. I was suffering pretty badly with HOCD before I started and I knew that I was an addict (but didn't realize how addicted I was) but didn't know how to break it. I thought that masturbation was healthy and porn was something that everyone used. I stumbled on article by accident on my Facebook feed (which I have now quit - another part of my NoFap journey) where someone gave up sex and masturbation for 21 days. "Impossible", I thought. I read this story though and at the end they mentioned NoFap. I thought that maybe I coud do that and ended up finding YBOP, Gabe Deem's Youtube videos (who was initially probably my biggest inspiration) and this forum. I decided there and then to give it a go. When I was reading how long a "reboot" was I thought that I could maybe manage 30 days and, when I saw 90 days I really didn't know if I'd manage that! 90 became 180 which became a year...

    I had no idea that HOCD was a thing until I started reading about it on YBOP. It suddenly made sense what I was experiencing. I read a lot of books on overcoming OCD (I have actually suffered with OCD for most of my life but most recently it was manifesting mainly as HOCD). Overcoming HOCD I think was one of the hardest things that I've ever done. Trying to fight the monster in my brain felt for several months to be a hopeless cause. One day it suddenly seemed to get much easier. Now I would say it's 90% gone. It still comes back from time to time (mainly when I'm stressed) but I now recognise what it is and have strategies to deal with it mindfully.

    When talking about NoFap benefits, obviously overcoming my HOCD was a big one. My life feels more enriched. I find that I have a much more "can do" attitude. If I want to do something now I'm tending to do it rather than looking for the path of least resistance. I am also much more assertive about stuff. When something goes wrong now, I don't try to pretend that it hasn't or hide - I actually go and put it right now. I'm still an introvert but I definitely am putting myself out more and feel more self confidence.

    Oh, and in terms of masturbation I have done that twice (after 13 months had passed) without porn/fantasy. Sensation was much better (I couldn't believe it) but it really wasn't actually that great. I will do it from time to time (maybe once or twice a month?) and I feel that I have finally broken the link between it and porn. Porn has gone for good and I have no intention in letting it come back.
     
  2. Powerbeyond69

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    What is HOCD! I know ocd
     
  3. Intrusive thought about being gay, constantly questioning your sexuality.
     
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  4. kirkv

    kirkv Fapstronaut

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    I have over the past few years developed this habit of prolonging my mastrubation and sex so long that it makes me uncontrollable and helps me ejaculate so good that it would make me feel so satisfied and drained out that I would peacefully fall asleep ..... problem is it became a habit...I needed it each time bi was alone and I would feel dull and drained during day time when I was alone ...I mean I still do
     
  5. kirkv

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    There are times when I have mastrubated like 4 times in a day felt limp thought I would go without it for days but have done it the very next day ....I'm 44 years now and have completely given up ...people in this forum are all Talking about extremes about abstaining from sexual thoughts my problem is not about porn but my obsession with chatting with strangers .. playing fantasy with them it becomes such an obsession that nothing else turns me on and this had become the only thing that turns me on

    I am not saying that I wanna stay away from it ...but is there a way can I control it to like Twice a week ..is it practical..am I talking something impractical and nonsense please guide
     
  6. Nameless_And_Faceless

    Nameless_And_Faceless Fapstronaut

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    It happened to me as well. One day i fapped like 4 times! more than i ever did before, but you can suppress it. Your solution here is working out. Get your body in shape, make the V shape and six packs, because working out makes you addicted to it in time, and being addicted to this habbit is much better than being addicted to M and porn. Another thing, limit talking to strangers and fantasizing about them. Focus more on real sex, and real relationships. Don't forget to take cold showers when the big urges to M hit you. Also, I noticed that push ups, or back exercises kill the sudden urges instantly if you can do straight 5-10 times. I hope that this can help you and good luck !
     
  7. kirkv

    kirkv Fapstronaut

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    i don't have any real relationships so i am ok with masturbating once in a while ...but what i'm not in for is reality porn and habit formations...is that fine?
     
  8. Nameless_And_Faceless

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    well, i'm not an expert on this subject...But i believe that if you fap once in a while without porn, and if you kill porn once and for all, you'll notice that the fapping habit gets decreasing more and more till it wither away and die, but make sure that you don't watch and dirty picture/video at all costs, porn will try to joke with you, will try to make you watch with any means necessary, so just don't fall to its traps, and you'll be fine.
     
  9. kirkv

    kirkv Fapstronaut

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    so what ur saying is dont masturbate with a source it will pull u in again?..
     
  10. Nameless_And_Faceless

    Nameless_And_Faceless Fapstronaut

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    that's right.
     
  11. Tekren

    Tekren Fapstronaut

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    Amazing story diddykong!! You can be proud dude, stories like yours are a real source of inspiration, thanks a lot for sharing :cool:
     
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