6 months and I relapsed...............

I relapsed , a few hours ago . I reached a staggering 6 months .
I don't know why . I think it was because I forgot how much of regret one feels after a relapse because that long of streak people forget shit .
But now I am much aware , I already feel the loneliness and unwilingness of communicating .
I feel demotivated , I am gonna start new . I am now confident I wont ever relapse this time. I'm gonna take what I learnt from my last streak and apply it again .
And I am gonna view this first post everyday , just so I dont forget how it feels after a relapse .
I am sorry guys , I failed all u

 

DAY 1
New day new streak , I woke up at 8 AM today and I was crying till 9 AM .
I am fully aware and awake now . I will be attending offline school after a veeeeeeeeery long time , a whole year .
I still feel a bit guilty about yesterday but im moving on .
I'm gonna go on a run the cycle then i'll maybe go to the gym , also I have started intermittent fasting , heard it was good for weight loss (obiously) , increase in growth hormone and energy im gonna need more energy after a day of relapse .
Also thanks to all the words of encouragement .
Hope You All Have A Good Day !!