6 months milestone after 8 years of trying!!!

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  1. Mkwarrior214

    Mkwarrior214 Fapstronaut

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    Day 181

    Today I'm 6 months free of any porn or masturbation.
    Also I decided to not have sex with my gf for a while (it's been 16 days so far) .
    Sex sends me in a bad mood (possibly flatline and anxiety) for about 5-6 days at the moment.
    It's quite sad, but it is what it is.
    The war is not over yet for sure!
    The last 6 days I'm dreaming of porn scenes and having porn flashbacks from the past.

    I'm proud of myself and of what I've achieved so far and I'll keep going forward.
    I started a new course in college 2 weeks ago that can possibly
    help me shape my future (I've been unemployed for a year now).

    Post Acute Withdrawal, urges, porn flashbacks, mood swings, depression , anxiety are still here , but not all the time.
    I'll say I have 60% good days or times of the day and 40% bad days or times of the day.

    Funny thing that I thought It would be over after 90 days and I would feel amazing. I was addicted to PMO for 20 years, so I don't expect fast results. Good things take time!

    I'm still here and keep fighting!
    I'll keep posting my progress.
    Thank you everyone for the support!
     
  2. Eaglevision_2019

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    Me too buddy, My addiction spans 20 years or there about. My resolve is firm and decided. I hope for more success inn the future. Funny that in my recent streak I have had more than 6 people commenting about my deep voice, both men and women. This is perhaps one of the most outstanding aspect I have noticed.
     
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  3. Mkwarrior214

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    I noticed the deep voice too a couple of times!! It comes and goes ! Things like mental clarity and happiness comes and goes as well. The ups and downs of recovery are very frustrating!!
     
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  4. BetterMeandI

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    I am close to that as well, 17 years, in total I think. Heavy urges to go back again. but on day 33 at the moment
     
  5. MindfulWarrior

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    Keep in mind no PMO is not the only variable in your life though, it can't make you feel great 24/7 on its own, you got to take into consideration so many things: diet, exercise, mindset (maybe things like meditation, gratitude), financial situation, hobbies, relationships, I mean I'm just naming a few things from the top of my head just to point out no PMO is not the end all be all, though it is very helpful and a catalyst for sure!
    Congratulations on that streak, enjoy the freedom and cleanliness from PMO :)
     
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  6. GOSUCCESS

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    well done u are trying to make it for 6 months
    u needed 8 years but me i just need 1 year trying inshallah
     
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  7. AlexBacker

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    yeah. noticed that too. i thought it was only about me
     
  8. thabtua

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    I know it sounds bad that for some people removing the bad effects of this addiction takes more than average but it is the truth. Everyone has their own journey. Usually, 90 days is a milestone that so many things expected to change but even if changes %10 for me then why wouldn't I get that %10? Our lives suck and even %10 better will make us happier than now. To be honest, my first goal is that 90 days but I'm not %100 sure I will have drastic changes when I hit 90. I don't have any idea but I don't have porn and masturbation in my life anymore. So 90, 180, 360 don't matter for me. I only hope to get well as early as possible but I know I'll be, one day or another. So, reading these type of stories don't break my hope. I only wish that it won't take so long to rehab but if it will, then what can you do? Stay focused. Keep the faith.
     
  9. MindfulWarrior

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    I wouldn't say it's 10% if we get to live free of PMO, that alone, just the fact that I'm not consuming this crap makes me feel way better than 10%. I guess you're talking about brain rewiring, which yes might take a while longer but that's okay, gotta start somewhere anyway.
     
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  10. Mkwarrior214

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    I hope to feel better in 1 year from now! Today it was a good day! I Felt better overall.
    Thank you everyone for the support
     
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  12. MindfulWarrior

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    That's odd. I don't see why that would be the case in a loving relationship. The study doesn't provide much explanation unfortunately and I doubt that would merely be because of losing semen since it also happens to women apparently.
     
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  13. Bon-Bon XO

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    If you release during sex, that's probably why you feel that way after
     

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