Mkwarrior214
Fapstronaut
Day 181
Today I'm 6 months free of any porn or masturbation.
Also I decided to not have sex with my gf for a while (it's been 16 days so far) .
Sex sends me in a bad mood (possibly flatline and anxiety) for about 5-6 days at the moment.
It's quite sad, but it is what it is.
The war is not over yet for sure!
The last 6 days I'm dreaming of porn scenes and having porn flashbacks from the past.
I'm proud of myself and of what I've achieved so far and I'll keep going forward.
I started a new course in college 2 weeks ago that can possibly
help me shape my future (I've been unemployed for a year now).
Post Acute Withdrawal, urges, porn flashbacks, mood swings, depression , anxiety are still here , but not all the time.
I'll say I have 60% good days or times of the day and 40% bad days or times of the day.
Funny thing that I thought It would be over after 90 days and I would feel amazing. I was addicted to PMO for 20 years, so I don't expect fast results. Good things take time!
I'm still here and keep fighting!
I'll keep posting my progress.
Thank you everyone for the support!
Today I'm 6 months free of any porn or masturbation.
Also I decided to not have sex with my gf for a while (it's been 16 days so far) .
Sex sends me in a bad mood (possibly flatline and anxiety) for about 5-6 days at the moment.
It's quite sad, but it is what it is.
The war is not over yet for sure!
The last 6 days I'm dreaming of porn scenes and having porn flashbacks from the past.
I'm proud of myself and of what I've achieved so far and I'll keep going forward.
I started a new course in college 2 weeks ago that can possibly
help me shape my future (I've been unemployed for a year now).
Post Acute Withdrawal, urges, porn flashbacks, mood swings, depression , anxiety are still here , but not all the time.
I'll say I have 60% good days or times of the day and 40% bad days or times of the day.
Funny thing that I thought It would be over after 90 days and I would feel amazing. I was addicted to PMO for 20 years, so I don't expect fast results. Good things take time!
I'm still here and keep fighting!
I'll keep posting my progress.
Thank you everyone for the support!