Hello everyone, I have just managed to hit the 6 month no PMO. I thought this day would be such an achievement however I still feel no fulfilment in joy or happiness. Don't get me wrong I still have those good moments but currently I just feel empty for the most part. The benefits I have received so far, severely reduced anxiety, I can now speak in front of crowds without my face blowing up bright red. I longer get this urge of anger and annoyance when speaking to my family, now it is much better and I can socialise with them normally. Other than that tho I still feel like the same old me, which is rather dissappointing because I feel like a super boring person even though when I was a kid I didn't use to be like this, I was so happy and was known as somewhat of a popular person but now I feel like I have lost that "alpha" in me. My story begins when I was around 11 years old, literally remember seeing a video on youtube of a model and that got me hooked. Over the next 9 years I developed a porn addiction which then led me grow quite erotic fetishes. To this point of PMO these fetishes have still not gone and I don't look at women in full attraction. All my friends are so happy with the women they see in clubs etc, and it doesn't even bother me to be honest. I feel this is wrong and perhaps my reboot time is going to take significantly longer I'm just not sure. I would love to hear if anyone else has been in a similar position. I watched porn three times a day for probably around 7 years, (i'm now 20) so that I started around age 12. This is the same time I joined high school and literally turned into this super beta male, I had lost all of my friends and have pretty much been unhappy since. I had one relationship when I was eighteen but that only lasted 9 months, and I still love her to this day however I thought perhaps it was porn for the reason we weren't fully connecting. Anyway, 18 months later I haven't been with a single girl since and I'm in my prime for god sake. I want to be that guy who brings a girl back from the club but for one it just isn't in me and two I just don't have the attraction to most of the girls. I'm really hoping my brain just isn't fully rewired and that I need more than six months, I want to be happy and outgoing once again so that I can maybe reconnect with my ex or even find someone new. If anyone has been through something similar I would love to know, however I'm 20 so I would typically need something in the same age group and as I said before I wanked off to some pretty messed up stuff.